I shall try to enjoy the final weekend of my holidays in the warmth of my cosy little HDB unit, though the floor was nearly icy chill this morning. Singapore is definitely going through global chilling. i went for my forever-exhilarating-foot massage session ytd and the auntie kept staring at me weirdly throughout. i didnt know her intentions initially so i kept avoiding her stares, shifting my focus all around the place. i bet i looked damn insercure. haha turned out she was trying to observe my eyebags! they are supposed to reduce or rather im supposed to look more energised, my skin is supposed to look more lively, or so she claimed. ahaha ok then she didnt believe that my eye circles were heriditary! hahah she said "come for my shoulder massage sessions and you will see immediate improvement. dont regret!" - yea. so to prove that point, i am going to visit her again this afternoon. haha i will bring a mirror and stare into it all the time (to avoid her eerie eyes more conveniently). And i freaking cant stand salespersons (though i used to be one myself but i wasnt the persistant sort - which explains my poor sales results). I was at this shop with my mum in compasspoint and i see another poor girl (ex AJC) waiting for her mum there also. haha. but the main point is the salespeople there were simply irritating and lying through their teeth. my mum hardly qualifies for the description "shapely" in the normal sense but they insisted on using that term when my mum walked out of their changing room with a 49 bucks fabric that made her look like a dumpling wrapped in multi-coloured cotton cloth. i mean with all due respects shes my mum and i love her for her character and all but you simply cant tell lies just to get sales. seriously i think the coat made my mum look fatter (it's the kind of santa clauz cloak cut thing).though it evinced that she has a waist, her tummy (no thanks to myself and my 2 brothers) and butt was clearly unhidden. hahah but i could tell that the salesperson was obviously guitly la..she dare not even talk to me after my mum went back into the changing room, after i gave criticism that she looked like empress dowager. haha nevertheless, as long as my mum's happy, it doesnt hurt to spend 50 bucks. especially since she sponsored 150 bucks for my new clothes. HAHAHA
The WriTer* in Me!
30/01/2008
yr 3 "thats what SMU's about what"
kailing "i dont mean academic projects know? i mean im spending time on projects outside SCHOOL work more than im actually studying or preparing for lessons"
yr 3 "welcome to SMU!"
-hurhur- alright! new insight into university life. HELLO WORLD. im a part-time student, full time CCA/project-goer AGAIN!
dyed my hair light brown and the smell makes me wanna puke my glutinous riceball in bobochacha out.sweet.
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24/01/2008
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21/01/2008
不能永远都白费
希望能有不一样的结局
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13/01/2008
as i was saying...
I told ziqian that i have acquired the capacity to give.. through my struggle away from being self-centered. It's a pleasure to use that capacity to make someone smile (: I guess the world will be a much better place if everyone were to learn to do this unconditionally, no matter who the benefiting party will be - equal amount of love showered on even your neighbour! hey maybe one day, a want of love will be a course of action under the law of tort! Obviously, that is far from reality and we all need to inch slowly towards that goal. Frankly, i cant really be bothered with others apart from the important few :P
and im warming up for school! come what may! and i wont falter even if im in the know that the next major exam is up in 2.5 months! yayyy :(
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08/01/2008
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06/01/2008
我不喜欢当观众，不起眼的观众。以往的他 像明星般在我的生活中闪闪发亮。
世界似乎围绕着他旋转。他的地心吸力，强烈得让我无法喘气。
虽然我属于某个星系，但感觉特别沉重，沉重得想离开。
阴错阳差，我有一天脱离了那个轨道，自私地享受着不拘约束的运行。
我放荡、我无虑、我任由他单独残喘。
我要他知道 我才是他不可缺少的。
而如今 以脱离的我 只能做个 渐渐被淡忘的观众。
读着陌生的故事，那曾经有我参与的故事，不曾提及我的故事，感慨万分。
至少回不去的遗憾 将会有如恒星般永恒。
and im 5.5% of the population!hahah. cheap thrill of being rare and special. hahah. but then again there are 16 personality types so.. haha big deal.
oh oh ytd was nearly crazy. first i was subdued by THE eerie eyes massager auntie as she had her fingers plunging into my acupoint WHICH HURTS LIKE SHIT EVEN NOW, second my new pen dropped into the toilet bowl and i had to stick my beautiful hand into the pipes in an futile attempt to retrieve it; and PUMP!comes the news that NYNP's DALT department's gonna be separated from the main cca.
I understand that young kids like to experiment with policies and love changes, like how council had a new committee called CSI budding out of SWC and now after 3 years it is to be merged with FBI, and NY getting out of SLC a few years back to organise some other leadership thing by itself, only to ask for a reinvitation back into SLC last year. hahha. we shall just wait and see.
my dad is getting eccentric on the sidenote. he started yelling in the car and blurting the dialogues of yesteryear black and white movies like 刘三姐 and all. it kinda freaked me out a little albeit it being new, exciting and pretty enjoyable. hahah maybe i should have a look at one of the few brilliant scripts written by ancient geniuses one of these days. i said i would finish reading 红楼梦 somehow too...hahah n im still thinking about it. JUST thinking.:P
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05/01/2008
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02/01/2008
Perhaps i will just set 30min aside to think about my new year resolutions. It's kinda sad that i always forget what my resolutions were specifically by the end of the year. haha but i guess i pretty much met my own expectations.
I have been reading a little (literally - just a few paragraphs) and this seemingly childish chinese book about a tiny lonely potato sort of moved me a little. A resounding ripple in the darkest of my locked-up memories perhaps. budden again, being largely happy, they arent that dark :P
告诉你一个秘密... 寄出又后悔的信，决心不再写那样的信...
可有时还是会 深深地想念你 于是做了一个我自己的秘密信箱
寄去了我想对你说的话... 今天也是写了几行 按下了发送键... 感觉
你马上就可以... 看到我的信... 但是永远... 不会有收信确认的 我的秘密信箱
and another one
我 不喜欢亲切的人... 我孤单时，跟我说话... 常常给我发温暖的文字信息...
我有难处而不知所措时，细心地帮助我...虽然有时你也会不耐烦，说我为什么不懂的东西那么多。
总是亲切的...亲切的 你关怀着我...我真的 很讨厌那样的你...
你常常很亲切...只是作为朋友。
reminds me of something i wrote during my emo era haha
我终于知道我为什么喜欢柠檬茶
它 融合了 感情世界的 甜蜜、微酸与苦涩
今天的我 喝了两大杯的柠檬茶
酸酸的泪，冲淡了悲伤
溶化了自以为的甜糖
想不到你 竟狠得下心 草率地刺痛着我
我想说我明白 我想说我了解
做你会喜欢的好人
但我更想 摊开伤口让你窥看
看着那爱你的心 如何在残喘中坚持着
又有几分 被你无情地搓烂
淌着血，呐喊：“放弃吧”
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