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28/11/2007

是非在乎时势，公道不在人心.

I cannot agree with the above statement. Cannot. I guess this can really serve as an effective test of whether you are a realist or an idealist. Im the latter.

至少在我从懂事到罔世的数十年间，是非与公道不能那么轻浮、缥缈。不然人生哪还有原则，更哪来的"坚守"可言?

#kl still believes in the good of everybody13:49

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27/11/2007

"To be fully alive, fully human, and completely awake is to be continually thrown of the nest."

- Pema Chodron

hahha im super sure i will be completely awake if im thrown out of my bedroom window but not very fully alive and specifically not very likely to be fully human either.

OK im trying to entertain myself. exams are boring but they fill up my days (: without them i will be wasting my time away. it rhymes!

#kl still believes in the good of everybody21:13

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25/11/2007

I CANT WAIT TILL FRIDAY
OFF WITH ALL THE SHIT
IT'S CHILL OUT TIME!

#kl still believes in the good of everybody21:28

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22/11/2007

im really dreaming of a delicious christmas. hehe.
and yes the kid in tshirt and shorts is me! (: i wish i can draw like that forever. i hope the kid in me never goes away. I hope that all my friends, family, loved ones treat me like a kid, as a kid. No hypocrisy, no lies, no patronising. my drawing will be prophetic if there is one single day like that. Gingerbreadmen snow. HAHA but i still wish so anyway. what a blessing that will be.

#kl still believes in the good of everybody23:20

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20/11/2007

I am not a saint. there are so many times when i wish that i could forgo morality and civility to give way to my primitive instincts. -barks-
I bite so dont mess with me lest i break from my leash
im glad im brought up in such a way that i learn how to control and suppress myself. I remember how angry i used to feel whenever my dad made some sarcastic comment when i was young (the kinda thing that hinges on my ego and hits my red button) and i would take my jotter book and a pencil and write "忍" with such strength that u can see indentation ~10 pages behind.
thanks for the training pa!u saved someone's life. alot of people's lives in fact!

#kl still believes in the good of everybody20:01

I will be having a WONDERFUL HOLIDAY!!

but i currently have no programme for christmas! (: FINALLY im free to attend any kinda christmas parties after all these years! EOY are always filled with trips and camps and O1 and stuff. ahah so anyone?

budden again, i may be busy with ISE stuff and i cant stay in hostel during the hols and that means no late nights. -shrugs-

anw jamie gave me nice nice quotes (:

"You never stop loving somebody. You just start loving somebody else."

reminds me of Eason Chan's song 爱情转移

徘徊过多少橱窗

住过多少旅馆

才会觉得分离也并不冤枉

感情是用来浏览

还是用来珍藏

好让日子天天都过得难忘

熬过了多久患难

湿了多长眼眶

才能知道伤感是爱的遗产

流浪几张双人床

换过几次信仰

才让戒指义无返顾的交换

把一个人的温暖转移到另一个的胸膛

让上次犯的错反省出梦想

每个人都是这样

享受过提心吊胆

才拒绝做爱情待罪的羔羊

回忆是捉不到的月光

握紧就变黑暗

#kl still believes in the good of everybody10:41

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19/11/2007

Goodbye To You

Michelle Branch

Of all the things I've believed in

I just want to get it over with

Tears form behind my eyes

But I do not cry

Counting the days that pass me by

I've been searching deep down in my soul

Words that I'm hearing are starting to get old

It feels like I'm starting all over again

The last three years were just pretend

And I said,

Goodbye to you

Goodbye to everything I thought I knew

You were the one I loved

The one thing that I tried to hold on to

I still get lost in your eyes

And it seems that I can't live a day without you

Closing my eyes and you chase my thoughts away

To a place where I am blinded by the light

But it's not right

And it hurts to want everything and nothing at the same time

I want what's yours and I want what's mine

I want you

But I'm not giving in this time

And when the stars fall

I will lie awake

You're my shooting star

#kl still believes in the good of everybody10:24

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18/11/2007

恕

#kl still believes in the good of everybody23:46

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16/11/2007

记得你叫我忘了吧，记得你叫我忘了吧

如此简单的重复句，却如此痛彻心肺，余音绕梁

忘记、忘记

能忘的，怎么会记得

#kl still believes in the good of everybody11:37

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14/11/2007

ok tuesday nights are nights of wisdom. Confucian wisdom. I can just put all my law-ish things aside and sit properly infront of my TV and listen to 于丹心语 for 30min and continue with 楚汉鹪雄。hahah yes im cheena shit and im proud of it=P I cannot stand people who defame or insult the wise old sage (yes indeed thousands of years of age) just because they misintepret what he meant and all. ONE particularly troubling instance is the "confucian says" application on facebook. UTTER RUBBISH. anyone who has that application either get rid of it or please vanish from the surface NOW. omg thats so bimbotic. haha anw quote of the day!

子贡问曰：“有一言而可以终身行之者乎？”子曰：“其恕乎！己所不欲，勿施於人。”

所言甚矣。宽恕并不限于对他人的宽容，也是对自己心灵的呵护。仁慈是将心灵的枷锁松开，对利己之要求的宽容。若有不如愿事而因此耿耿于怀，甚至谴责自己，致终无济于事。相反的如果我们能宽恕自己的过失，那么怨恨、惭愧等便能迎刃而解，不再搅和原本平静的心灵。

#kl still believes in the good of everybody00:09

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13/11/2007

OMG Heroes was mind-blowing. I can't believe how agitated I got watching tt show i can blow up at anybody. it radiates savage and destruction. BAD. I think it's the combination of caffine and irritability. Urgh dunno whats wrong with me these days. Redbull makes me hot like a bull. ROAR. no..moo? ARGh whatever.

#kl still believes in the good of everybody00:25

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11/11/2007

what will you do if your mind's in a swirl and every scoop you take out of it contains debris of shattered dreams?
Piecing them up you find resemblance to the scaffold surrounding your new dream factory project.
Would you have the courage to continuing building, recalling how they were broken by the same pair of hands which built them.
I don't.

#kl still believes in the good of everybody17:26

愛過 - F.I.R

作詞：謝宥慧　作曲：阿沁　編曲：Terence Teo

＊古老的傳說　流連海灣的魔咒　

傾聽的水手誰忘了掌舵　靜止了時空　

永恆的泡沫　負載多情的愛愁　

陽光下看似繽紛的花朵　盛開後墜落

＃親愛的你　不該回頭　

那歌聲　太多錯　

哼著唱著　聽著心痛　

於是眼淚變成寄託　

親愛的你　別不放手　

別期待　無法去實現的承諾　

就算　愛過

#kl still believes in the good of everybody00:06

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10/11/2007

"Hope is nature's veil for hiding truth's nakedness."-Alfred Bernhard Nobel
there. I said the world is beautiful. I wasnt behind the facade of navity. The rest are blindfolded with a thing labelled "cynic"

#kl still believes in the good of everybody14:59

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07/11/2007

“子贡问政。
子曰：足食，足兵，民信之矣。

子贡曰：必不得已而去，于斯三者何先？

曰：去兵。

子贡曰：必不得已而去，于斯二者何先？

曰：去食。自古皆有死，民无信不立”。

照此说法，我国人民的信念根本不足以撑起国家的发展。若无严政，国家便濒临瓦解。在人民的心态无法完全效忠于国家的情况下，严政似乎是唯一解救的方法。因此人民何来抱怨的权利？
反论之，“民无信”亦源自一个国家长久以来的文化的酝酿。以新加坡而言，1960年代的追金主义以在人们心中打造了无比深厚的根基。至今，金钱崇拜仍然统治着人民的思想。很自然的，当个人利益充斥了脑壳，国家整体的利益便被轻视了。是自作孽？或是无可奈何？

#kl still believes in the good of everybody08:57

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05/11/2007

(: I got a C+ for my first midterm paper in SMU. What a good start right? I was super super sad and demoralised for the one and a half hour or so..and i was sorta laughing at myself and being hysterical for the next 1 hour and totally entertained shiyun zhern n naf in the gsr in our amazingly short ctt meeting. I guess it's all natural for emotional balance. Though i felt better after the short mtg (zhern and all her funny mememe n such HAHA and shiyun for going along with my semi-drunk antics), i still cant get that thorn completely off my flesh. hahaha BUT miraculously wb managed to cheer me up in 15 min over the phone. HAHA it really helps when we tackle the crux of the problem and when someone is just able to tell u things that somehow works in getting some sense into your brain. (: this is something beyond all talents. hahah in retrospect, if anything, this episode taught me 2 things - i NEED to work hard to catch up with everyone at the frontier and i am too used to being in the top 20%. i cannot stand being out of tt circle. WORK WORK WORK! hahah but i guess the more important lesson is that now i know who are the ones who can cheer me up when im in need (:

#kl still believes in the good of everybody21:44

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03/11/2007

怎么办我又搞砸了

似有某种命运的捉弄般

历史悄悄重播

布局渐渐明朗

我傻傻失足

不带心的揶揄

不谨慎的话语

穿破了耐性

识破了客气

打破了联系

为了汲汲于胜

为了无谓的自尊

可笑的我就这样失去了

怎么办我又失去了

#kl still believes in the good of everybody22:45

I feel like a super big loser today.
first my hair cut was screwed up, i realise i lost 10000 strands of hair while trying to style it (making up for the bad hair) and study plan flopped the moment i typed www.facebook.com in my browser. ARGH

handball wasnt any better though i had the company of darleing (=D) but i totally feel like an idiot. Kept missing the ball or the goal throughout the game and i didnt get a single shot in! It was so bad till the centre guy didnt wanna pass me the ball anymore :'(
kai ling needs to work on passing and catching and shooting and faking and...basically EVERYTHING. BAH. but nvm, practise makes perfect. Shall work harder next training.

#kl still believes in the good of everybody19:08

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