The WriTer* in Me!
31/07/2006
Ok then monday=today started quite well.. ahhah for once im not hungry before 9am!! believe or not even if i stuff myself with food during breakfast, i definitely will go pinching beng for some meat (haha) by 9 but this time i didnt! i was quite full aft chem like 9am!hahah. okok then it got REALLY COLD i dont even think im in singapore.hahah it reminds me of the weather at genting la.. nice icy cold blasts that will just keep blowing at your spine and nothing can distract you from the wind and its such a good excuse to be not doing anything!! hahah
ohya not that im oversensitive la but hahh some the antics of SACO Famous4 today just hit my weakest spot,emotionally. haha i dont think anyone realised. Good. hehe im gonna get out of it anyway n it aint gonna hurt so much (:
anw this is just for REMINDER purposes: YAO YUEQI owes me a treat. (: [i will magnify this 100x if i can. hahah]
oh random note: i just realised today that 潘朵拉 = pandora! hhahah. oh and another confirmed fact, we, 05s73, have been indoctrinated by the wong(sp) freq. hahah LEP S today was like totally ... insane.heheh i guess im gonna miss him qt abit when i leave HC.
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29/07/2006
i like this video so mucH! haha i think they look super sweet
heh this is my favourite song in the whole movie (:
来交换你偶尔给的关心
明明是三个人的电影
我却始终不能有姓名
slack day~ i slept till 3pM! hahah goodness.
perhaps because I wanted to just dream on. Really, it has been a longgg time since i had such a sweet dream (: well, maybe for me, sweet dreams usually dont come true. Whoever's up there is a trick-playing fanatic. Give me a break man.
you will see a brand new me.
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25/07/2006
你模糊侧脸
这会不会是最后纪念
我凝视你而你凝视
窗外的阴天
一句抱歉都僵在嘴边
你的笑脸还在胸前
晃动着昨天
为何回忆会让人晕血
如果我们继续向前走进雨里面
会不会有溶解的危险
明明从前
连真挚都很甜美
现在怎会
说句话就能肿一边
我搞不懂
我们到底怎么了
诚实的背后
是否
住着伤口
我想不透
我们的爱怎么了
雨下过以后
是否
能让什么
复活
Nice song. exceptionally good demoraliser. no good for preparing-for-exams-period.
Darling sylvia reminded me that prelims is a mere 4 weeks away. HAHA. yong4 xin1 liang2 ku3. OKOK iAM mugging! hahah just not very efficiently.
Anti-distraction mode!
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24/07/2006
whatever.
one test coming up tmr, another one one wed and another one on fri. wed and fri one i havent study and i think im gonna start tmr..which leaves me with v lil time. i dun wanna go for chem s. shit. i remember telling beng to take things lightly this afternoon and how i told zhixuan im trying to be a lil zen and care less. hahah but when things start to look really really near n up close and in comparison u look so small, ideals dont work anymore.
lousy day.
now when was it that i rmb being extremely disciplined.rid off the indulgence this very second
if u are looking back in history, most of the time you are not satisfied with the present. n i darn it hate the present. this very moment. argh. but i wont runaway.
SLEEP! im gonna finish both cha guan and HALF of sexual repro notes tmr.promise!
i find myself laughin in a weird manner.when nothing seems to brighten up and when everything that seems good turns bad.hah. have i changed or have i been too faithful to sticking to who i wanna be.
and when u know all these are caused by hormones yet theres nothing you can do about it, u feel like burning your bio notes. what crap
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23/07/2006
outburst, wrinkles, crows' feet, eye bags, headaches, sleepless nights, random tears, pain in the ass.
yea, you know when you should stop.i hate to, but i guess im stopping for now. I know im worrying about things alot of pple of my age wont understand. and it's hard to understand. Escaping for the past 18 years (and still) hasnt been easy but when the truth starts to set in, it's difficult to ignore. It''s really horrifying to know how vulnerable life is. need no pity, need no sympathy, no special treatment.
at times like this, i really do think im blessed enough.
something that laughs cant hide. that something is hindering my path to realise the dream and i know how true it is.
PSC is offering medicine scholarship and midtern scholarship. heck. i will just sign up for everything.who knows what may happen next. it might be wasted in the end.
I was real scared today.when you know there's a limit. better now than later i guess.
shit. mum's coughing like mad.
on a brighter note, the weekend was cool (: FIRST AND EVA fish and co dinner with watch BARKER minus ahem.. (im so sorry) and it was really YUMMY! hahah ok next to conquer - MACHE! haha it's really queer how we hit off so well, having getting together for a mere 4days.
went off to jiayan's house aft crapping and laming around in the cool glasshouse. IT's like beside this really awesome furniture shop in old european style which sells a bed at 10 000 bucks! i will be more than glad to own such a shop and take a few rolls in that bed when the lights are off! haha. well anw her house is just at some ulu corner near the orchard police station and it's like a SHOPHOUSE. like HOW MANY LUCKY SOULS IN SINGAPORE GET TO STAY IN A SHOPHOUSE~ hahah n we drank and played cards and had fun! Saturday was squad outing to sentosa. hhah nothing much to do, other than eat eat eat, swim swim swim, tan tan tan. hahah n being totally childish playing w the fountain and the ladder thing at palawan. went off to PS next to take neoprint~! man, the last time wwas.. wass... i dunno how long ago! last december i think. hahah. what a pity! i should have my face on more photos man! BHB! Sunday = today. pool was satisfying! HEHEH i am TYCO queen (: 4 tycos in a row, who can beat that? ahhah n i looked like joshua's brother today - the alot shorter one. hahah. n gosh we saw 2 super metro guys in town hahah n are superly amused! n i wasnt slacking! went to cathay starbucks to mug for 3 hours or so n i had my second taste of ben n jerry in a weeK! hahah choc fudge tasted just like any other choc icecream..boo but oatmeal's nice :D n i shall ignore the horrifying part and end my day by saying : LOVE LIFE! LIVE LIFE! hahahha
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20/07/2006
Bad night. Bad. it just felt as if the whole world was collapsing on me, every inch of air was pressurisingly toxic.that's the poison of the impending As. I think i over-reacted to the adrenaline rush last night, mugged a straight 10 hours today and ironically it felt good. It felt fulfilling and i really dont mind more at this point of time. Muggeransformation - 80% complete. what's lacking? hmmph..the NOTHING CAN TAKE ME DOWN confidence.hahah
looking forward to the weekend!watch outing, squad outing n pool cum mug outing! but not the coming week. 3 tests to go and im like errgh oh please just let me strive pass it.
you cant measure what i feel
with words that seems so real
for it had to be entrapped in the little things i gave
and the frowns you've never seen on my face
GO WATCH HIGH SCHOOL MUSICAL! makes you happy~
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19/07/2006
I conclude that i will get complacent if theres no competition :) Be it with my limits or others. ive got a BABE and it will become BAAA! hahah and i know it's so possible. I just know it.
budden sometimes, knowing isnt enough.
like i know how stupid it is not to be thankful for all blessings. and how stupid it is to be overambitious. how stupid it is to place emotions over logic. hah but i have a heart. and its aching.
on the road to be panda-ised
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18/07/2006
Or is it just today?
Busy. afraid. short of time.
someone tell me what am i doing
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17/07/2006
My mind was as good as dead during school today except for bio prac! hahah i dissected a rat!! it was white and furrY and HUGE and CUTE!oh no i felt so guilty and bad as i was pinning it's limbs down by its palm and feet. mrs goh killed 13lives in order to show us a pregnant rat (a female pregnant rat can have up to 12 foetus in the womb)! i took a video!hahah still considering whether i will upload it. not for the weak hearted/terribly benevolent!
heres some random pic
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12/07/2006
ohoh and there was this weird little kido outside the glass door who keeps irritating / entertaining us. hahahh he just STARES at you when you are eating and being the me who HATES little kids, i REFUSE to look at him. hahah but beng n shell were terribly entertained.. (beng kept making faces at him, as if hes a baby la) hahah in the end i gave in and decided to write a note to him and showed him through the window "we are going off now and you are very cute!"ahhaha n then he gave a hilariously shy look! the best part was when we went out of the restaurant, beng went near to say bye to that kid and he actually played dead! haha like he let out a "AH!!!" and dropped to the ground! have you ever seen such a random kid?hahah hey.. maybe i like children, MAYBE! oh im not finished, after walking a few steps we realised that he was following us to some shop!and i was like "beng, you are doomed!" hahah but it turned out that he was just super friendly and came by to say "BYEE!!" so cute :) this time it's true from the heart!
maths tutorial, bio tutorial, chem tutorial, chem s homework. ARHH how to sleep tonight?
anw some pic taken on ECACO jts
oh anw hahah i think the thing below looks like my DEAR FRIEND.TEEhees
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11/07/2006
dont feel like studying yet but i should. i mean HELLO i just finished block tests and back to burying my face in notes agaiN?gahh
"Change takes but an instant. It's the resistance to change that can take a lifetime."
inspirational quote for the daY! hehee but i have high inertia. and you cant change that :)
watched CHA GUAN in class today and instantly my world loomed with sorrow and darkness. not only me, my whole class's so dampened after watching it.hhah i wonder if this is what they call a romantism-styled delicate sensitivity.imagine living in a class of poets (yes we do write poems) oh man 人生几何？
OK CRAP
sometimes i wish i could have a reset button
like those small red ones i see in cartoons
then i can start from the very beginning
i will choose a plant of different root
dump the old one down the chute
and perhaps this time i can get a sweet and deserving fruit
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05/07/2006
and my hair's gonna get nicer!im just experimenting with the styles.
and hahahh my classmates and syl will know that i made a vow. hahah this month's gonna be so fun!!eh and if i EVER succeed, thank gong-gil!! (points to the post below n u see the chio-est guy ever) gosh.. i cant imagine the day that i will actually make it. hahahh it will be like end of the world or when singapore wins world cup aka many years later aka i wont be around anymore!(moan for germanY!:( poor me had to suffer from boredom from 3-530 and the ultimate shock of my life at 5.30)
yes and stupid irritating daryl had to dig it in. grr
ok i got back ying yong wen and chem MCQ. and i performed as "well" as i expected. and math's gonna come tmr :( i want A!
and i think i better go read some books to fill up my life. i feel rather shallow. hahah that time yq introduced some to me in the beginning of hols and i NEVER had a chance to even browse through them..nor do i even remember the title. WHOOPS.hah tt explains.
GO and watch King and Clown or something liddat!OMG OMG im like totally mesmerised.hahahh
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