"The future is not a result of choices among alternative paths offered by the present, but a place that is created--created first in the mind and will, created next in activity. The future is not some place we are going to, but one we are creating. The paths are not to be found, but made, and the activity of making them, changes both the maker and the destination." - John Schaar
The WriTer* in Me!
30/06/2006
when everyone's happying and i have to mug
hate it
when my interest has to be diminished because theres an exam
hate it
when i so feel like doing something but just humji
hate it
when some people just say stuff for the sake of saying without thinking it might hurt pple
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27/06/2006
got bad feeling about maths and bio n lep 2 too.
it's out to demoralise pple and get pple to study hard for prelims. so i guess i cant escape it! :D
LEP:(i hope)A
Chem: (at most) B
maths: (i HOPE) A but most likely B
bio: please let me get at least a D.
arggh n given i didnt do well for BT1.. this is pressurising.
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26/06/2006
OH and i left my packet of goodluck sweets in the GP classroom!! i hope i can find it back tmr!$2 eh, and there are loads more people whom i havent got the chance to meet in school and give the candy to!tsk how smart
OK CHEMISTRY here i COME! i must get at least a B this time. RAHH..last blocks was an accident! wont happen this time!
hahah and i think i did something really silly last sunday and poof ive got a stupid blister on my foot from walking cauz i wore my brother's slippers and they were ultra large. but they looked nice!hahah. n i bought new sneakers from reebok!not v nice but i like leh hah. AND im gonna trim my hair aft bio paper.. it's terribly out of shape and i look pathetic.hahah but it looked ok 3 days ago la.. perhaps it's just the wax im using.okay change :D shit i sound like a vainpok
是你让我看清自己 可以为爱那么坚定
让我感谢上苍赐予的奇迹
为什么哭泣是你 欢喜也是你
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23/06/2006
now where can i go on a weekend?poof
2 days! DASH till the end!
haha surprise surprise *pokepoke georgia* met (incidentally) ningfei in school today. he was in school to mug!! hahha the first classmate ive seen these few days. i guess the rest are doing fine at home. haha why am i such a guai4 tai1? well anw when i was going for lunch, so incidentally he was behind me, walking out for lunch too! haha so we lunched at cute chicken and talked.hahah LONGEST convo w ningfei ever! (applause) aiya classmates for close to 1.5years but that was the first time we talked for over 15 min la..abit sad hor. too bad my "clique" comprises of all girls.
tsk COME ON people, 2 more months to goodbye!just bond la! hahahh that sounded rather desperate but WOAH 2 months to my last lesson in hwachong..hmmph that's fast! real fast!
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22/06/2006
disclaimer: up to your own intepretation. I merely took down the facts. (:
(it's down there)
your (lousy) photographer :)
I really think im doing my very best at this moment and yup i will be satisfied whatever the results turn out to be (:
And it's another sweet sweet day with a sweet girl. hahah. 2 actually! Im so xingfu! (n when troubles usually follow after blessings.. this isnt a good sign but at least im filled with joy now!aiya take it as a reward for mugging hard)
and this song's really really nice! i fell in love with it the very first time i heard it!perhaps it's like so me!hah
第一次见面看你不太顺眼
谁知道后来关系那么密切
我们一个像夏天一个像秋天
却总能把冬天变成了春天
你拖我离开一场爱的风雪
我背你逃出一次梦的断裂
遇见一个人然后生命全改变
原来不是恋爱才有的情节
如果不是你我不会相信
朋友比情人还死心塌地
就算我忙恋爱
把你冷冻结冰
你也不会恨我
只是骂我几句
如果不是你我不会确定
朋友比情人更懂得倾听
我的弦外之音
我的有口无心
我离不开darling更离不开你
你了解我所有得意的东西
才常泼我冷水怕我忘形
你知道我所有丢脸的事情
却为我的美好形象保密
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21/06/2006
i made a terribly traumatic vow in the middle of last night to force myself to study. and up till now it's still pretty effective (especially after the horror that i couldn't do 3/4 of trigo revision exercise). i really must! if i break my vow..it's worse than dying!Oh man.. it's the most vicious one ive ever made! hehe
OKAY BUT i still managed to watch garfield 2 today! and it's bad. couldnt even match up to the mediocre standard of garfield 1. if you are looking for pure lameness and laughs .. go watch. you will probably forget the plot in 2 min. and mummy's off day = kailing kaijie spend money day! hahah 70 bucks on apparel.oh man..that can feed a whole family of 7 for a day!
mugmugmug i need help with maths. :S cant imagine i actually scored A* for p sch and A1 for A maths in sec sch. Grr
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20/06/2006
Alright! i love today! what's holiday without a single trip to KBOX?hahah yea im glad i did it today! though im basically trying to shout into the mic to hear myself over my stupid bro (who keeps singing so loudly even though hes terribly out of tune) haha but i only find myself going out of tune too. WHO CARES!hhahah
我爱你，我真想能好好爱你
好想告诉你，对不起，我爱你
yup those were the opening song n closing song respectively. HAH 5 days to go!:S:S:S shit
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19/06/2006
hahha but rather happy to know that i have an extra 4 days to mug LEP paper 2!hohoho blessing from heaven man..made me feel less guilty for slacking a little now.hahah but yea i will still continue to work hard duhhh.
oh but that means i may be compelled not to go for the nanyang funfair.TSK.heck care la im going back
arggh togo lost.means korea may not get into top 16!crucial match against switz la!if korea lose..4..swtz 7.then if france wins togo..5.ARGHH togo should have drawn w switz laaaaaa.
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18/06/2006
not v productive day again, i spent half my time staring into the mirror which is right beside my study desk/bed. hahah oh WELL. then went pasar malam n spent over 100 bucks. mum is crazy. or issit retail therapy?
Anw gym cum kbox trip with bro on tues will be my LAST outing. will ask mum to change the house lock and keep the keys away from me. heheh. blast the tv abd unsubscribe from maxonline.oh n smash my mirror and burn my bed :D that will give a kailing whos gonna score straight As. HAHA as if.
Dream on.. dreaming's beautiful
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16/06/2006
Nothing much to comment heh just that i think that it's not a right pertaining only to the XY subspecies to buy and give flowers for various purposes.
ok random
i spent 4 hours on excretion notes. half the time wandering off to island fantasy.hahah xun should be familiar with this "bio turns me on"!ARgh countdown - 9days
okok im gonna be cut off from MSN and channel 27 of starhub cable from today onwards! noctunal animals shouldnt be distracted!hahah so if u see me online from sat on, slap me!
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15/06/2006
hahah yea n i recently found my brother rather adorable.hahah when he doesnt act like a terrorist that is
and lastly the joy of the day!
OH and i miss the HAP! hahah at least i didnt have to mug like crap.haha mark even wanted to tag along the 2nd run pple la.but seriously i dont mind =D
我问爱情有没有站牌
有没有线索可猜
我问邂逅什么时候来
我该用什么心态
等一份情走进下个现在
让未来有惊喜意外
相信盼爱的平凡女孩
不须再平凡的等待
遇上爱那一天
有个他能思念
想像谁把涟漪放我心里面
遇上爱某年某天
两人之间
用默契相连
从那天
我就会
许下愿
心锁总有把匙能开
是巧合还是安排
对的时间和对的人try
感动一定会很快
迪上爱某年某天
有个人能思念
决定把我整颗心寄放他那边
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14/06/2006
erm hahah abit brokeback but i cant find a pic with better focus on his face. hahah alot on xiao bai though.hahah (im starting to find his new nickname v cute haha)
well the world cup craze aside..mugging out has been okay so far. hah monday w..oh monday i didnt mug. i went out for pool with joshua then met maf for lunch then with to watch slither with sqmates. it has a lousy plot so dont waste money. ahah i told them i read in the critics that it's supposed to be a comedy/horror film then sqmates were like"huh how u laugh n scream at the same time?" hah that's true la but we did have some good laughs and the whole that cathay cinema..we were the only ones laughing! heh there was like this scene where the male lead saw smth gross and he went "oh..my....." hahah then we went "SHIT" very loudly together and 1 sec later he really said "shit!"hahha we can go be scriptwriters man. had some good scares n screams n then went to eat at lao pa sat! It doesnt taste nice as well..dont waste money there too (aiyo i sound so stingy) but yea tt's the truth.. it's only a tourist spot la.. n this is an understatement.BUT we did spent like near 100 dollars on food la but im not surprised!hahah when there's sqmates..there's stuffing of food and nv having to worry that there will be leftovers!haha still rmb we are always known as the rubbish bins!any function with leftover buffet or smth.. we will always be the ones clearing (hey sounds like what i was doing a few months back!) haha (GOSH SPAIN 4-0 now!) then around 5 pple left we just walked all the way to esplanade.. n all the way to the 7-eleven at citylink to buy alcohol and then all the way back to esplanade just in time to finish them. haha end up didnt talk alot n it's 10+ - needa go liao. haiz. wait till cs is back for more gatherings la.
then tues mug w jamie.n whoeva said island creamery's a good place to mug is lying. hahah the seats get hot so quick and i literally have to shift from place to place to make myself comfortable while waiting for the late girl.n boy is she distracting!hahah :p but i managed to trick her! mwahahh dumbo.but i like dumbos (:
wed - today! mug w joyce at toapayoh library n as usual, that's the most condusive place. i can mug from 10 -6 without napping/stopping (other than for lunch)! hahah n i forgot to bring that girl's ultra belated bday present and the mtg was kinda fei4 la. the point was to pass her the present anw!so.. hahah i bought an orange rose in place of her present + a really cute curly whirly pencil. when i was buyg tt rose, the indian stallkeeper asked "what occasion is it?" i said "random :D" hahah n she understood!hahah i guess there are quite alot of random pple around.
horror of horrors i saw ms yao at the library!hah when i saw her at the stairs while going for lunch im sure i went 'EH!!!why are u here?" quite loudly.hhahha pleasant surprise (: la.
yup feeling a lil lethargic abt mugging already by thanks to yq im reminded that there's only 11days left n YES! i shall strive on!
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13/06/2006
Bio's bleeding.
and im spinning.
damn it. im scared.
stop spinning.
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11/06/2006
YESSS
n i will be a saint tmr. love me, you worhtless lecture notes and books. im having mercy on yoU!
-NB: aftermath of closing oneself in the room for one whole day and face nothing but chem and handphone keeps ringing-> mad.-
i dunno why.. keep getting dizzy very easily nowadays
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10/06/2006
but i did something more meaningful.. i think. haha like talking to mr tharman and eating all the way from bukit timah to bedok HAHA.
someone needs to constantly whip me man! argh i need to study!
i think i will end up watching tv the whole of tonight!ARGH. OK organic chem for now!
DO IT KAILING!!
man im so lazyyyy
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09/06/2006
Ok i shall put my mugging schedule up later and try to pressurise everyone, including myself, so you can help to push me on as well :)
Muggin day 3's gonna be 60% efficient and somehow it will reach 100% and kailing will be edified completely.yay
what a thing to look forward to huh?!
ive got damn receding hairline!ARGH.
wishlist for Xmas present: hairgrowth/treatment voucher!ahhahah shit i sound desperate and random.hahah
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08/06/2006
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OK im quite sane now to post about my ultimate OBS experience! Let me start from some statistics:
Number of hours of sleep the first night= 1 hour
Number of mosquito + random insect bites = zillions (even thru my socks and shirt like WTH?!)
-element deleted-
Number of new friends made = >15
Number of bruises/cuts = 3
Number of days not shitting = 3
(will add on if i think of more)
compared with my sec 3 experience at OBS resi, OBS mobile this time was definitely more satisfying and challenging (: Although a number of guys claim that it was not even a teeny weeny bit physically challenging, at least i thought it was la..(man i feel feeble) so nvm!
Firstly cauz my watch rocked!hahaha all very interesting and unique pple + a very handsum instructor! haha!
Gideon! + Junxiang, bingsheng, jun cheong, joshua, haojun, jeffery, weeleng, yiyou, anna, jiayan + yours truly = BARKER! alright!hhaa the other 10 of the HAP pple formed Sui Sen. hahh
actually i dunno exactly where to start but.. aiya anyhow la
Day1
met at punggol jetty and zi highed as usual with hwachong peepz and the pple from other jcs, namely rj vj sajc nj tj nyj..yup.Then i showed off my very cool insect repellent band (and if u paid attention to the front part of this entry, u should know by now that looks are really deceiving. it looked SOOO trustable). reached OBS shortly after and i saw the 2 instructors. Dean n Gideon. kept wishing to myself:i want gideon as my instructor..gideon..gideon.. n TADAH he became one!haha cant describe who he looks like at the moment lehh.. but he looks good la. the less-handsum tay ping hui.darker..long hair..lil goatie but COOL! hahah ok i announced hes the handsummerest instructor liao so tt's not news to my group.hahah
-camp content deleted for confidential purposes-
shit i just recalled that the 2nd run HAP pple are not supposed to know what the camp is abt! hahah so i shant blog about the activities la.but they are SUPER FUN!
but one regret is that the OBS store wasnt opened cauz we were there over the weekend n the vendor dont work on weekends.so couldnt get souvenirs. n 3 day's definitely too SHORT! though im quite zonked out by the 2nd night.. but aiya.. got activities then i can tahan one la. hahah.
tsk i feel so restricted by the confidential thing.. tsk.
i love my watch~! hah.
im still under the attacment program..going to the various units under SPF these few days!hahah gonna be exciting!im so set for this job man. i think only a damn good TCM/Med-related tour or attachment's gonna change my mind. oh man. tt's bad.hhahah
and i found a potential colleague!YIYOU!!hahahah yea
Oh another happy thing b4 the OBS!haha the mug-with-the-future-teacher-session. haha ms yao n i had a good attempt at queenstown library..with great food nearby (minimal distraction though) hhah. i doubt much went really in though. Haiz. i really must perform well this blocks. JIAYOU ＴＯ 凯铃!
i hope to stay for a while..
除此之外，我要你明白
你的笑我真是喜欢看
于是我一次又一次等待
其实还算愉快
除此之外，非常遗憾
你的心我还是打不开
but if you need somebody
你知道我会在 不会走开
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Ok more abt the HAP. I guess it really really really helped in confirming my career choice. The only hindrance now would be my health condition but.. sigh no point worrying. Just gonna try to reach the interview stage n poof im gonna be a ma'am soon enough.
After visiting the prisons department ytd (which was really enriching and an eye-opener), barker went to Changi Airport to.. eat n slack. hahah too bad cheong couldnt be with us!! Much less entertainment available!!haiz. but well dinner was super salty!ate at Popeye's chicken and other than the milk biscuit, other stuff were rather disappointing. BUT nvm, kailing is forgiving (: Well then we moved to the viewing hall for truth or truth. hhahah had good laughs and the rounds were educational :D hahah DONT ever put 10 horny pple together. we learnt tt. hhehe. then 3 policemen came by and hahah we tried to act guai and polite!hahah we even asked them if they had dinner already!yea we are good citizens.. just a bit horny.
oh man im starting to miss the group already. hahah especially those in tj,nj,rj,vj!arggh. jiayan owes me the yellow VJ jersey!haha
anw mugging DAy 2 failed terribly.shit. less than 2 weeks more. argh
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06/06/2006
my obs watch - barker!
hahah i look horrid in the other photo with gideon so i shant up load
anyway here's a sneak shot of today's exicting programme
HOT!HOT!HOT! hhaha super hot place to be in man! yes it's fire!
and a random enlightenment
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04/06/2006
i feel rugged again! Alright! haha i should go for more obs!
ok update more when i can confirm i wont become Panda(:
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