The WriTer* in Me!
29/05/2006
it somehow clears my mind!well, for a second it did-im all set to clearing my desk now!haha abit no link leh but nvm.
calsburg's the best beer in the world
but i wont get drunk
i rmb the last time i did, a little
rubbish
saturday..hmms what happened again..oh yea i toured around singapore!
Fooled ya!
ok not funny.
went for lunch at sakae in the noon n im so proud i ate only 7 plates of sushi to fill my tummy!I spent the least in the family! partly because im guilty of REALLY OVERspending this month (which is about to end, YES!)ok they off i travelled all the way to the central-west at bukittimah plaza area to attend ms ong's farewell! hah ok the front part was a LONG wait for bimbo beng. hahah she is super funny la. 4 of us dressed in pink polo tee were sitting (im)patiently on the busstop bench (what a sight!) and we got so worried abt her we decided to call her. that girl said she was at coro n didnt know which bus to take. so we told her the zillion of possibilities and we wait. 20min. anyone in the school would know it take less than that to reach bukittimahplaza from coro. nevertheless we believed in her n waited (:. 66, 852, 151 zoomed pass and there were no sight of her.bimbo called to say shes on 171 n near KAP. and when she alighted we niaoed her as usual n this was her explanation : "I really knew which bus to take!i went onto 171, then 852 overtook me!serious!" -insert-"u can take 66 u know?!"- "Yea!it overtook me n overtook 852!REALLY!!" and u can imagine the look of disbelief on our faces followed by the usual thunderous laugh-at-beng sessions.hahah poor thing but too bad you've got mean classmates :p
hhaha okok enough of being mean. get back to the farewell.the dunction room was cosy and entertaining with tv n all. as usual we entertained ourselves with cards first while watching jie da huan xi. haha then mr teo dikai came n gave me the shock of my life. HE BAKED A BUTTERCAKE! hahah but he thought it was ms ong's bdae (OMG himbo) but nvm it was appropriate for liqian's haha!then The teachers were really really nice to uss! they prepared DIY bo piah ingredients, ms ong made waffles ahhha n mrs goh brought her 2 kids! Sooo cutee!aiya but i had to leave early for MP session. oh well but it was nevertheless an enriching one!heh due to the sensitive nature of the topics discussed i shall not talk about it.but it's really interesting ;)
then came sunday. supposedly ecaco outing la.. but it came a gossip + play bridge n daidee at haborfront foodcourt session with yeowch paul n jamie. It had to rain the whole day on sunday..waste my free admission tix to sentosa + free lunch la. i thought i cld save some money n have some fun on tt day.. tho i had the latter.. i spent almost 20bucks on food!!like WOAH.. glutton me la!hahahh but we nearly tore the whole place down with our laughter and exclaimations!hahah n paul's agitated move was woah-ing.hhahah i felt super paikia la. imagine.. we were supposed to be youthful sporty kids on the beach..suntanning playing frisbee or smth.. but we ended up in a cool corner of the foodcourt playing cards and openly sneaking in food from mac donalds cauz the pathetic foodcourt doesnt sell fries!hahah oh man
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23/05/2006
- Mary Manin Morrissey
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21/05/2006
The full dress rehearsal, even the stepping down itself seemed so long ago.
Perhaps it's because the week's really eventful.wednesday was volleyball, thursday netball, friday basketball. Not forgetting the unusually long and fun filled weekends - friday night council dinner, saturday painting n touch, sunday's big walk and slacking (: Basically it's pushing my withdrawal symptoms back i guess. Im still going out for movie with peish n company on wed (: but that aside, i guess it will be rare to see or attend any major outings.
but well big walk today was high self amusing and attention grabbing (good or bad is subjective) and i definitely enjoyed the random assortment of weird stares, mockings and cheers from the fellow Singaporeans. haha n im proud of doing that kae?all the attention grabbing and entertaining people and just being crazy (: Perhpas it's a kind of venting of emotions.
Come to think of it, i dont think anyone else, other than the 32nd would agree to doing such things. such a team is rare to come by!!let's recall:
doing ALL the hwachong cheers ALOUD! singing the college songs ALOUD. OPENLY challenging a group of VJ OAC peepz to cheering (n we won. YAY!). singing national day songs, uniting all sinagporeans around us (n pple sang along k?like seriously! hahah dick lee or similar personale would be delighted), doing three cheers for random people like the photographers (zillions of them, who will at least haveone photo of the red gang - us, in one of the many photos they took), the dragon dancers, the balloon people, and the fa lun gong people (it's like a mini chinggay, very interesting).
Though we sort of died off in the end.. hahah it was overall a pleasant journey with my batchmates around! hohoho. 10km isnt long at all!heheh. but my ass hurt after that hahah n we all slept so unglamly on the bus to PS! steph was hovering over me la! hahah.
NOw im scared. ive been blessed w so many incredibly nice, talented, friendly n zai, seemingly perfect people that im so afraid that i may not be able to adapt to other organisations in the future. i know im rather versatile but it's starting to wear off cauz im pampered. pampered in ny, yet again in hc.
ok im in a jumpy mood so i shall jump off to another topic. i wasnt in a muggy mood today so i only did one chem s question. did i mention b4 that i have totally neglected my main priority as a student to mug for almost half a year already? haha i guess im a really bad juggler of tasks. ok maybe not but right now i havent adjusted myeslf back yet. still quite a number of random stuff bothering me.like always. but i have set my mind on shifting my priorities to where they are supposed to be so help me with that (:
mummy's being cruel to both herself n us. keeps reminding us of her so unbelievable but seemingly true prediction that she may die in 3 year's time, or so said her suan ming person. like WTH?!any form of power up there, bless her!
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18/05/2006
It meant the special bond with everyone in school, saying hi or waving even if we havent spoken to each other before. Just pure seeing alot of each other.and that's enough to break the ice. Amazing for me.
It meant screaming my lungs out for nothing but hwa chong when the netball or volleyball team fought their way through the finals despite having no obligations or such.n i dont know most of them (:
im a proud member of this family. though i still cant understand why some pple can be so pathetically apathetic. n i must say it isnt even cool.some have gone to an extent to be detestable.
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16/05/2006
some from the 33rd asked,"are most of you all tearing or something?are you all very sad?" my answer, genuiene from the heart, "No leh!not very sad. im still quite hyper and bouncing around"
Let's see, the whole stepping down ceremony looks like a rehearsal to me..haha so i wasnt really feeling anything. all the technical screw ups and the random speeches just made me wanna laugh.:D. hmmph even at the singing of the batch song, hahah i was kinda bothered by the fact that my voice sucked and i couldnt reach the high notes. Then yeowch burst into tears aft the song n for the first time i realised this is the last time, for real.
Then it was the junior's invest ceremony.I was still quite hyper as i badged my chic n sic. laughin n jumping. even laming around with shit n hon when they sang their batch song. the councillor thing is still so in me..that aft the whole invest when no one was there to usher people, me shushu n daen immediately went up the audience seats to usher guests and parents. hahah it really didnt feel like anything has changed.
Instead of a mass crying sessions, what most of us expected it to be, after stepdown brought about a mass phototaking session. I dunno about others, haha i was basically looking for something to do to conceal my emotions.hehe at the very least, i thought taking photos would be the appropriate thing to do.. to fill up my time and it's constructive!yep. so take -flash- take -chikeee- and take -chesse-. Smiles smiles smiles. whacky poses. at every click of the shutter..it spells an ironic mixture of reluctance n gratitude. To me it was quite a pathetic attempt to keep memories..being the blur sotong i always am, im terribly afraid that i would forget that all these ever happened (like i TOTALLY forgot a camp that i organised and went through!oops). it's just a twisted way of saying bye or take care to everyone. it even came to a point that i just wanted to take photo with everyone and anyone, as if i wont see them again. phone memory is 90% full. i think my heart is 90% filled with emptiness then.every joke cracked, every attempt to smile..i feel guilty.
(phew that's a hell lot)Kept telling myself to stay optimistic. Kept telling myself that it didnt spell the end. n i really did believe in that. hhah but the fact that i will be leaving tt room for good just kicked in. the fact that today would be one of the very last few occassions we would just slack around in school as 32nd..or simply just be together.I lingered around for quite a long while underneath the audi, in the dance room. not that i really liked that place or anything(it was really dirty) hahah but rather i loved the feeling of just lazing around with paul,gloria, jamie. it's quite a funny scene. 4 of us just sat down in a row in front of the mirror. WAiting for nothing. not really doing anything. just tired from all the phototaking and the long speeches during invest..and the burning pain in the feet. i dunno what they were doing but i was just looking at the reflections in the mirror. Then i lied down..looked at paul lying down..gloria sitting unglamly and jamie haha just staring at herself in the mirror. n i know deep down that im gonna miss them so much. then the tears flowed back into the eye (i was lying down yea? haha so no one knows i cried)
Then we decided to stop lingering at the dance studio but the council room instead. hahah to quote from some insensitive soul "it's the last few hours so treasure it". Well..one of my agenda i think. We decided to go out to town after slacking for some time in the room. not that anyone of us beared to leave it..but it was just a complex mixture of emotions. haha i quote yanyan "I feel like staying in the room but i dont feel like staying in school" translation "we love council so so much." i guess we just wanna have fun as a big group on this very special day (: that being said, some still couldnt bring themselves to say bye i guess.. hahah i guess i spent 40+min waiting n being waited for. hahah n i took a photo with the room. i stroked the sofa! hahah n im gonna leave my name in my pigeon hole, i wont force myself to take it down.
hahah then i had the impulse of just hugging the people around me. no specific reason..i know i will be seeing them around but.. well hahah dunno la.
yup then went to scotts to have lunch and slack around again (treating everywhere like the council room..) unglam around.. slept on the foodcourt seats..shared ice kachang, yogurt..haha took more photos!then went to watch MI3!
then i went home n continue staring blankly at the walls of my room, thinking how un-wonderful my life would be if not for the 32nd.
"stepping into a new phase of life, we had never realised.
the warmth of friendship here would light up all our hearts"
i really really really do love the 32nd students' council. and i havent learnt to let go.;p
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14/05/2006
Argghh ok i shall cut down on luxuarious food like ice cream and Jap food! Cant wait to try the new stall in the school canteen! It says R&B noodle hut hahah sounds lame but the batkut noodle photo sure looks inviting!
my voice is coming back!wheehee!GOGOGO 2 more days.Im morphing from a frog to ah du now.good progress!
I decided to be super nice this year and bake a cake for my mum for mother's daY! hehe so after the stepping down rehearsal ytd i went over to yif's to learn how to make the orea cheesecake! And HEY!it's the best ever ok?no one can beat me!! iT's seriously the nicest tasting thing on earth! ahahha tt girl is the biggest dumb dumb. she makes baking cake the most easy and sui bian thing on earth. smashing oreo in the chinese stone thing..using residual butter tt shes abt to throw away to grease the casing, oh and the bestest of all..her family doesnt eat white sugar so she used brown sugar to the cake!ok~ hhaha and i merely followed instructions and hahah im a genius at that man. not too bad for my first baking session ever since home econs ended when i was 14!greedy pigo still went to kope crisp and bits of my mum's cake lA!
but it tasted a lil salty.. hhaha but being a nicest mama, she said it made pple want to eat more. awww.. my love is addictive la. HAHHAhahah!
Happy mother's day to all! oh n my 73 mama doreen!n my grandma zhixuan!and ahma huiyi! hehe
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13/05/2006
Yes here i am with my ultra ooba husky sexy voice..most terrible one eva as a result of my stupid flu and prolonged cheering (:
making a speech on tuesday + singing sch song for the last time on wed and this is happening to me?!
haha anw i went for fac outing ytd and had a great time laming arnd w peish yanyan n jR.hAh the food was better than last year's for one. heh
things dont feel the same anymore. why now?
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07/05/2006
lying dormant all these weeks and days and nights
just waiting for the chance to strike again
Prick and go
reprick and remain
a certain resilience of unknown origin
forced them back
back to the glands
kept from the outside, prevented from waste
there's no reason to wallow in the shadows
when the ablazed spirit is just a turn away
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06/05/2006
Notebooks and calendars wont help this time. I just cant stop forgetting stuff. Screwed up brain.
Like how smart issit to watch the RJ dance nite, the day before my all-so-expensive SAT ,at the Victoria theatre - which is 1000 miles away from my house (even though i think it's worth my time and energy, i had seriously NO time to mug for SAT). Let's not compare and be satisfactory (: oh man that's mean hahah.
Ok basically i went with melissa and she sort of know the whole world there because the WHOLE RGS/RJ is there! oh my goodness! hahahh but im not bad la, i knew a quarter of the 3rd level of VT,quite an achievement given the antisocial me! ahha. I bought a bouquet for xinqin!!hahah shes uberly zai! that girl hasnt changed much.. i think neither have i la. hehehh meeting her on vesak!!
Well after that i was stinky and tired. YES REAL stinky (i realised as i smell my uniform after bathing tt night, omg i nearly fainted) wonder how the person sitting beside me can stand me for 2 hours! The worst thing was i actually overslept and overshot my yck station and it just so happens that the distance between yck and khatib had to be the furthest of all MRT stations. OH lucky!GAHHH i nearly wanted to press the emergency button and risk getting killed, which i didnt mind actually. I was totally totally beat. haha then it was very nice of mama to make me a fabulous supper(: made my day!
SAT today was like a major nation wide exam..think if some pple are blur, they might mistake ACJC as come polling station. hahah. HELL LOADS OF PPLE! if i didnt had doreen, i would have freaked out! haha.but it was ok i guess, i skipped many questions, as i thought and maths is like.. close one eye also can do kind.
Headed back to sleep (my bus journey took 1.5 hrs?!) but i hate myself now for being a super pig! I MUST MUG!
Cheering again on monday, tuesday, thursday! (: confused and complex emotions la. Just reminded me of what hongzhen told me when i first got the post "吃力不讨好".but i guess since i love it.. I LOVE IT! ahhaha. gonna miss it alot. everything about it. EVERY. (:
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03/05/2006
Since young i love to eat rice with water. as in just flood my plate/bowl of rice with water and plainly that. It's exceptionally bland yet sweet (: i think that's kinda like my life now. Boring and simple..yet that's when i can devour the sweetness inside (:
Feeling blessed.even though i hate school but there are at least pple who bothered to try to cheer me up!yay!
class outing at sentosa was super uberly fun! i should say it's the most successful one!! n i love this photo!!bigbig family la!
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