The WriTer* in Me!
26/03/2006
自作多情的天才 ：D
Slacking rocks. Rocks rocks!
NYCT06, the champs (: Finally. Joelyn was saying how she rmbed we wrote we wanted NYCT 06 to get the challenge trophy and the glory back. They did! It was so drammatic. The loose ground n the pegs, the flag twisting, the surprise element conking up, the twine penalty, amanda ma'am's hard-to-decipher expressions. All in all, some have resorted to just sitting down during the results, i was bitting my fingers as it got nearer and nearer to the top 3. And tadah, they did it!
I was feeling a lil guilty, to have not helped much, not being commited enough and feeling enough. hahah i guess i really havent been pushing myself hard these years, just letting the days go by, not even sure about what im doing or what i want.
It was really great to be back with the unit. Helps me recall what kinda person i was, what kind of passion we all share, what kinda dreams and aspirations i use to hold. And it makes me angry to think of now. No more excuses, no more slacking. Im gonna pick it up n im gonna get things done.
尽力只能圆事, 尽心才能成事
The second team was very disappointed by the drop in ranking and i can understand why. but since everything that could have been done, has been done, there shouldnt be any more regrets. I think the event was so much more worth celebrating than tearing for.. their sqmates, teammates were crying for, crying with them..even some trainers. (: smile, it was definitely a once in a lifetime experience.
Then i was thinking whether i was really glad the challenge trophy was BACK. hah i think deep down i really didnt think we lost it, it wasnt really impt to me, i dont think it was impt to my teammates too. Well it definitely gave NYNP a nice looking profile all over again but i guess i really didnt have any regrets nor did i feel some serious sense of defeat there not having the challenge trophy 2 years ago. I guess what really belonged was the passion we all share and the friendship bonded during those trainings.
Went out w ohjoe n wei zai after a LONG journey returning the poles to NY. haha slacked there in alot of random unglam positions and attire like we always did back there. Nostalgic sia. Memories just starting pouring back. I recall how i need not behave properly in front of squaddies, how i use to sit in the quadrangle every morning knowing that the circle just gets bigger n im nv lonely, how confident i was on every opinion of mine and feeling so strongly about them, even ending up in quarrels for that, how we got hated and still love ourselves for being ourselves. hah joelyn said we were sooo close because we were MADE to work together n then conflicts arise and we FIGHT it out, we see through each other so thoroughly n then we accepted each other for who they are. Wise words huh?
aiya then the rest of the day was spent slacking around. We decided to catch a movie at a centralised place for all 3 of us - Lot1 (i gave up going for super band, thanks to mad telling me that we had to queue for the tix. WITH SO MANY PEOPLE?!). hahah had a comfy sleep on the bus with weiwei as my pillow and the shock of our lives when joelyn vanished from her seat! hahahh it was hilarious la~ Ok in the end the movie we wanted to watch wasnt screening there (so louya) then we walked around n really pigged. like only 1 hour aft the expensive lunch at mad jack, we ate macs milkshake, barley at ya kun and attempted to go food culture, get cupcorn and eat jollibean!!hahah shopping w sqmate has always been efficient. GO into the shop, LIke something, Ask sqmate opinion, DECISION made within 10 secs. hahahh n they keep pulling me away from Man Studio and all the nice shirts!!tsk, but i got new cool ear studs (: the salesgirl was very pretty and very friendly!hahah i told her i was gonna wear to school n those she showed me were too big, then she just said "nvm la, they dont care one right?" hahha so tempting, haha then i bought a smaller one and she said "u really wearing that to school ah?" hahah isnt she the one who tempted me with a bigger one first?? haha then i was replying a msg and the stupid hp just slipped out of my hand. hahaha she grabbbed my arm n said "Wah, dont scare me! -laughs-" hahahah so interesting.
aiya all in all, i love batch 35 n miss those times in NY la.
Still writing my chapter in HC, and i do not intend for it to be any duller. JIAYOU to KAI!
ohoh another episode, haha great to know there are at least 5 other people with the same anklet that kukurambu gave me. hahah i shall listen out for where they are.
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24/03/2006
though i still have BIO spa n Gp to go but.. who CARES! it's my day today! n it's gonna be my day tmr as well!
22nd march 9.45pm - 6am. hhaha the best moments of my year. :p why?haha 9 hours of good tight sleep! with sweet dreams!
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20/03/2006
OMG chee yang rocks.hahahh
a random shot i took of the toapayoh library toilet. hahah cool way to block off poeple man, they must be desperate. I could have a model inside, but shes shy! :D
Ok maths wasnt THAT BAD after all la, just that im stuck here and there n anyhow do here n there. BUt at least i had an answer to almost everything (:
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19/03/2006
LASt day of intensive mugging and i conclude it's better to workhard out of house and leave enjoyment and relaxation at home. Yea. I erm.. attempted to do final revision for maths at home. ya, attempted. =D
OK!mugging in school library on monday!mugging in library on Tue! and library all the way!
Shheessh why does it end only on 27th?! Waste curriculum time la!!but poof, nvm
5 more hours to beauty sleep, that means 3more hours of mugging last minute! YEA i can hold out for 3 hrs! GOGOGO!
I wanna watch campus superstar LIVEEEEeeeeeEEee.. boohoo. Cheeyang better get in finalS!ahah. i swear i dont have a hidden agenda!-grin*
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18/03/2006
给你我的心作纪念
这份爱任何时刻你打开都新鲜
有我陪伴多苦都变成甜
睁开眼就看见永远给
我你的心作纪念
我的梦有你的祝福才能够完全
风浪再大我也会勇往直前
我们的爱镶在青春的纪念册
thank you funnyrandompiggykukurambu! (: happie day yay!
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17/03/2006
好想好想和你在一起
和你一起数天上的星星
收集春天的细雨
好想好想和你在一起
听你诉说古老的故事
细数你眼中的情意
好想好想 好想好想
好想好想和你在一起
踏遍万水千山
走遍海角天涯
让每一个日子
都串连成我们最美丽
最美丽的回忆
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16/03/2006
HC has a new band. Specialise in singing and acting..they are the new IN thing. I dont know how my brain got all the pixels together but they are people i havent seem before, hehe other than one. I rmb the sch had a day off just for them. Woah. haha yup so during morning assembly, they had a mini concert.. on the bridge. hah. performed acapella, jammed some songs and haha i must say i was definitely entertained, having found out that the ONE person i know inside actually can mesmerise me with her singing. Cool.
Alright then they screened their movie in the audi! hahah i rmbed the title, it's called yan yuan or something liddat. though the main characters were some big shots in hollywood, members of the band were the supporting elves! YEa, so peter panny.. elves! ok.. mabbe not, just perhaps they look much shorter and kiddo beside those hollywood stars.:p n i rmb staring straight at the person i know. hahah so amusing.
OOK next!before i knew it, it was dark (but my watch said 3pm..) but nvm. i ran out of school (wait.. i ran out of NYGH!) with jiaying.. to a kapo scooter! hahah okk.. we started the buggy and it went poop poop poop and we are on our way to NUS! hahah for the new term! n guess what, we drove into a geylang like place with the lights and all and our scooter became a bicycle! like WTH! n we had to maneuvor through the crowd and quarelling hawkers and stuff. ahha only to find out that NUS has moved next to chinese high. (hahah.. so much for expanding our world class institution) OK.. haha. by the time we entered "NUS".. our bicycle had turned into a car. (but i dont care anymore. it's ridiculous) n NUS is apple GREEN! hahah so cute! ahah n yup then i woke up.. i think. hehe :p
I want to own something. something that cant be bought. something that's hard to get. n i want it now. perhaps just for the fun of it. It's a challenge. hahh. let's try (:
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又被爱伤了一遍
无所谓 当作成长
刚刚走开的人
烟还点着 味道却淡了
我并不是天生爱寂寞
却比任何人都多
就算把世界给我
我还是一无所有
我要快乐我要能睡的安稳
有些人不抱了才温暖
离开了才不恨 我早应该割舍
我要快乐 哪怕笑的再大声
心不是热的 全都是假的
只有眼泪是真的
把从前想了一遍
谢谢了 伤我的人
想做乐观的人
每种雨声 听了都不冷
我并不是天生爱寂寞
却比任何人都多
就算把世界给我
我还是一无所有
我要快乐我要能睡的安稳
有些人不抱了才温暖
离开了才不恨 我早应该割舍
我要快乐 哪怕笑的再大声
心不是热的 全都是假的
我的决定是对的
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感动你 很容易
想要你快乐 好难
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13/03/2006
YES i didnt waste my day! CONGRATULATE ME!
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12/03/2006
泪有点咸有点甜
你的胸膛吻着我的侧脸
回头看踏过的雪
慢慢融化成草原
而我就像你没有一秒曾后悔
爱那么绵那么粘
管命运设定要谁离别
海岸线越让人流连
总是美得越蜿蜒
我们太倔强
连天都不忍再反对
深情一眼挚爱万年
几度轮回恋恋不灭
把岁月铺成红毯胡歌
见证我们的极限
心疼一句珍藏万年
誓言就该比永远更远
要不是沧海桑田
真爱怎么会浮现
生存很容易
瞎混乱撞，到处碰壁
互相猜疑，表里不一
最后可信的 只有你自己
处身于晚霞的云团里
依赖着缥缈须臾
软绵绵的温柔足以让人窒息
我在云雾中塑造出下一个你
准备让你离我而去
可能因为有这种心态
现在的我也只是个或许
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10/03/2006
GAH
OH JJ's on tv!! hahah ok so i was right to fall sick today somehow.. if not i wont get to see it!
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08/03/2006
and you get lost in it (:
I will get hold of myself, break free and rule my life. Mine.
hahah sounds lame if i extract this out but this is the phrase of the day:
"世界上的人很多" - yifang.
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05/03/2006
i think i mentioned that im learning how to drive soon.. like in 3 months' time or something and yea, my dream is kinda car/driving related. First off we started on the road..trying to fetch my dad somehwere i guess, and gosh my bro (14 yr old) was holding the steering wheel!OK n i think i had the same dream b4, driving along the same road..just that i was the driver then. hahah it was an exhilarating ride!!haha hes so so so skilled la. Ok so drive drive drive and we got to an overhead bridge near my old address.Woah.,. and it was SWAYING.. brown and torn. I was really wondering why the entrance wasnt blocked off and when i took a glance at the opposite side, there were people climb up the bridge. so i shruged and lifted the car up to cross the bridge.. hahaha so that i can get to the other side of the road and head back home!!yes. i lifted the car up.read that 10 times.hahah
alright then episode two. IT's O2! hah. ECACO is in the school hall, just that it looked dimmer and we are in the midst of preparing an item for the newbies.There a lame script as usual and i had to embarrass myself as usual. hahah. ya! n that lame thinggie actually made all the audience laugh! only paul was rolling his eyes.(so typical! ahha) THEN omg. glorijoy actually drove her bro's red sports car up the stage!!! dun ask me how! it's a dream! ok. haha N i actually got it, started the car and drove 3 rounds around the hall with all the applause and cat calls from the audience and parked it up the stage! pooff exciting dream huh!
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04/03/2006
well i read an entry abt the most out-of-the-world dream. haa n i am still having them! think they are rather prophetic! i get dejavue (if that is how u spell it) quite often. take for example this morning, i woke up thanks to jamie's msg.. and i thought i really read the whole msg. it was darn LONG and colourful with alot of random stuff..then i can still rmb. It looked like she was playing bubblebobber..hah then it had zodiac signs..some very real msges in front (real as in wad shes likely to tell me). haha i sensed something wrong subconciously (like why the heck is this sms coloured n nv ending), but i just read on.Then my mum shook me up.. and i realised i havent really touched my handphone - i fell asleep in the time gap between registering that my hp rang and the will to reach for it. heh. n i believed my dream was real because it was linked my dream last night la. we went to look for some teacher i think, then the staffroom suddenly looked like some top secret office. uhuh.. and we had to apply for this entry card and at every department, there's a roadblock to clear. hahah.felt so FBI-ish la. so cool. agent kai and jam! oh yea as i m narrating, more images came back to my mind!there was this urban concrete building thing.. i rmb seeing the ladder that led to the rooftop..and i forgot what happened. haha.but i think i was with yif.hah
oh oh i dreamt of yueqi the other time too.. doing her blur stuff as usual.hah.
i shall rmb my dream tonite!
oh i hate my hair. i SWEAR nv to do it at the neighbourhood salon. n i promise to STARE right at the hairdresser before she does anything silly to my hair.shit.
haha jamie n i went into the banner shop and talked to the person in charge. catherine. yea. n when we were about to leave, she said "are you all sisters?" ok that had an impact and it resulted in my impulse to chop off my hair. ahahaahh but nvm now i really got a sis! haha i LOVE jamie my sis!
yea settle down to mug! hehe with a funky hair (:
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03/03/2006
should i have tried harder.
what are you doing now? who are you thinking of. as much as i know it will not be me.
perhaps it will really just fade away. Initially i didnt want it. It's just sad.
well if it really fade away now, i might not mind. cauz that would mean a new page. perhaps this time the ending will differ somehow.
I dont know how when i thought i nv would, but i think im forgetting you, im losing you, i cant see your image that clearly anymore. and it doesnt feel too bad.
i dunno what this is ok? just.. changed
hah this is ironic. as i type this, im actually missing you, unknowingly. i need you now (: yet you dont need to know.
缘 随风而逝 在适当的时期不把握 就会开溜
巧遇之后需续缘，而我因为珍惜那片刻的珍贵，
追了出来。
而背后的力量，我始终无法解释
谢谢你推了我一把
I hate the PAE system. they should just release the stupid posting of schools once off and spare all poor souls in the world some misery of making them fall in love with their current school n friends and then forcing them to bid farewell in less than 3 days. Right. if there aint got love or sentiments in the coporate world, i think the working adults should take 3 days off and go for school-attachment-program just to rekindle that pathetic bit of human sense left. That will make them understand huh?
Xun n glori whos gonna be attached to the minsiter for education..pls tell him this system simply sux. haha. oops i hope im not gonna get into any trouble for saying that.humji la.
I MUSt START TO STUDY. MUST
shit i feel so bad. super bad.tsk.
FORGET IT when did kl care abt such wishy washy stuff anyway?Poof hands off maN!
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