The WriTer* in Me!
28/05/2005
On the very night i set foot on ubin resort for the camp.. this huge bee just stupidly hit the glowing hot lamp and it just happens to fall on my brows and i self-defensively tried to kill it but it just so happens that it's not dead and i kanna a sting on my brows.
Then it starts to ache and swell up. I cant frown i cant smile.. only can stay at the sian diao face when i was stung. FINE. Since then i feel very weak.
At night.. the stupid downpour had to come and my tent had to leak and i had to be drenched at my feet. Yup so the next day I kanna fever. yup so i wasted my second day at ubin and spent a freaky night at the teacher's dome n i was sent back to mainland after my temp shot up to 39.6 deg. bleah
Then i met this doc who prescribes useless medicine. Im left with the last dosage already n the temp is still high at around 38.5.. bleah. Gah i think i need a week to recover...
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17/05/2005
Anw got back maths test today. Quite happy la. though i failed. but.. it's a double digit at least!
Bio :D i think im in Bio Olympiad training..with that tyco test results. Dunno why structured qns i can do.. give me essay question I will score zero. haha
The speaker from first impression is so darn good! haha
mundane-ly busy life..
I want outing..and i want to sleep as badly.
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15/05/2005
Tsk.. but ya know what? I think I've changed.Irreversibly.
but then again..i guess the real problem is i lack exercise.. hah a shortage of a channel to waste my energy so i wasted them on fantasizing n.. hu2 si1 luan4 xiang3. hahah
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13/05/2005
Screwed Chem Spa
Screwed Maths
What else comes next?
bleak
I need to mug Council
10 pm 8 am LEP!
Scholarship Science Focus Mum doesnt allow me to famine camp
16 pcs of hw over weekend. One Sunday=weekend
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11/05/2005
busy. tired. sneezing. headache. sore throat. heartache. bah. just give me MC!
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09/05/2005
头文字M! : Mo-Gu, Ma-Chi, Miu, Muppet. hahah if u think im speaking in codes, then you are off frequency. Actually, there are only 3 other people in this world with the same frequency when it comes to this. Hohoh
29 pt for NAPFA! Gah, did i ever tell anyone how much i HATE sit and reach? Anw 3 more cm and i can get perfect score! but easier said than done la ya?
"Every heart that has beat strongly and cheerfully has left a hopeful impulse behind it in the world, and bettered the tradition of mankind." Never let the strong turn weak and never have a uncheerful heart < - new aim of the week.
I cried not because of you or for you. I cried with you.
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07/05/2005
CSM today :D I had the chance of doing what i like to do.. that's good and erm.. I was totally commited to it and yea it never felt better! Once i put my heart into it, everything will fall in place soon :)
To: you-know-who-u-r, Thank YOU so much. For the encouragements, confidence and faith throughout this bumpy ride. Thank you for being there when I needed support the most and continue believing in me. I don't know how I will survive this period without you.
Apollo won the best fac [with the most points] haha then jin rui wanted to run a victory lap, but everyone started out too fast, we cant complete 400m..so paiseh. I can go sing tenor now! ~low husky voice~
May be... you never really understood.It's not just this ocassion...
Actually, I starting to doubt whether I really know you.
On the way back to sch from xiao pin [to meet xinqin which in the end i cant meet :( ] spoke to mel abt a prob that i have yet to solve since.. 10+ yrs ago. haha it's been so long since Ive that impulse to do something pertaining to that problem. Thanks mel, you advice sure helped quite abit!
Just listened to huang cheng sound track. It sure does pull back alot of memories.. especially that kinda feeling at VT, looking through the curtains at yanling n vaneh on stage with THAT music.. the music is like the thread, linking up beads of memories scattered in my mind into one whole beautiful story - the huang cheng story. Im starting to miss huang cheng again. The music u are listening to now is the one played during ACT 4. One of my favourites. After xiao pin, aft lu yuan, will there be a chance they we can meet up as a whole again?
I like to reminisce on the past. Sometimes I will just sit on my bed and stare into the blank wall and images of the past just flash through my mind like movies. Sometimes, tears just drop down unintentionally. Like a play that's over and images still lives in your heart..listening to the music now and looking back, you will miss that play even more, hoping to just live in that memory. maybe that's why clinging onto memories can be painful. I just dont wanna let go. The more i recall, the deeper i sink into my memories, the more i resent the present.
Then i ended my day with a karaoke session at my mum's friend's house. Skipping guitar concert. oops.
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05/05/2005
I need to find another purpose in my life man. -think think think- gah why dont we just rewind and snip that part out of my life huh? No pain, no gain; no impression, no depression! i really dont wanna care but i cant help it. I need to rearrange my priorities.. things wise n emotional wise.
I know you dont know that you are hurting me. What can i do to you?
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03/05/2005
"Each of us makes his own weather, determines the color of the skies in the emotional universe which he inhabits."
I wanna call today - 'the day of new looks' . Basically the whole world put on a new look. As in most people trimmed their hair.. some really q toot.. like fang n joe ahah some q nice like syl. haha whateva it is, it's a sign that i should change my image too! :p
I dont think what Im doing is wrong. I dont go for a job because it is fun / interesting but because i like the nature of it and i like the challenge it posts. Please understand :)
Happy Birthday to BAtch 35!! hahah though the turn up rate for dinner is quite low.. hohoho but hmm we still love each other! Went back unit this afternoon then rushed back HC for audition, hope everything went well, for both sides. YUp tt's all!
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02/05/2005
當你開始追尋你要的自由
放開我們緊握的手 帶走我的愛和天空
我不知所措 我以為我會懂
我們的愛 我們的愛
當我獨自走到時間的盡頭
回憶和我擦身而過 帶走你的愛和笑容
我無力承受 最後的一點心痛
我們的愛 我們的愛
把愛放開 把手放開 如果你的心已不在
把愛放開 不再等待 你的溫柔是一片空白
把愛放開 把心打開
這次我決定走出回憶重來
就讓我徹底地傷 再徹底地醒過來
終於明白愛已不再
從今以後再也沒有什麼能去依賴
我還有什麼期待
Beng beng muppet and zhixuan came my house for mahjong yesterday. ahaah supposed to be fun la but well, my depression has not subside, so we either did not talk alot or talked about the dark dark side of life in JC. hahah how ironic, since we were quite looking forward to playing mahjong. I guess this teaches me one thing: it's not mahjong tt is enjoyable, it's the talking and joking part. Hmm
Thereafter we rushed to Marina Bay for Seafood buffet. Hhaa. I wastsed 20 min of their time oops. haha cauz we were late to start with [all muppet's fault for wanting another game] and then when we were in the lift and went to the first level already i realise my slippers colours don't match. OK so they agreed to go up for me to change. Right, entering the lift once more, it went upwards to lvl 14 instead of going down. Fine. then i realised EH i didnt bring my wallet! Alright so the lift went down lvl 6 for me to get it and finally down to lvl 1. Then AIYA we just happen to miss the bus. GAH and the next took like 10 min to come. OK so total time wasted is 20min.
But nvm, the food there was quite ok. Went to ZHONG BANG instead of ZHENG FA cauz the uncle was afraid that it would rain [indeed it did] and wouldn't let us on the seats which were unsheltered. Hhaha then suddenly my mood brightened and crapped alot. haha i suspect there's alcohol or some stimulant in the food. Other than a few pcs of uncooked mutton, i guess i can call it a delicious meal. hahah. had fun la :)
Gah i was doing work all day long at home. Bio independent study took 4 hrs of my precious afternoon! But considering the fact that i slept 9 hours? haha im still quite satisfied :)
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