The WriTer* in Me!
30/09/2004
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27/09/2004
haha ok SO.. i went out on sunday again with lu and deb and bought stuff again + take neoprint again + plae pool again:b and waiyee reminded me todae that i havent went kbox this hol...and i havent got my tan.gek sai.
Ok.. got back 3 papers todae. think my estimation for my scores are not tt bad. hahha fell around the low targets i set. -sigh-
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26/09/2004
I promised i will keep mum abt something that happened TODAE at monstercue. so i shall=) "mum mum mum.....mum.mum...mum"
Aggrhh i think im haunted by something lately.. kept having nightmares. I just suddenly woke at startled in the middle of the night at 4 or something and I was too afraid to go back to sleep. hahah so i finally tidied my desk! ok i shall intro the climax of my dream:
I was at the hospital with a WHOLE LOT of my family members and i think i saw my granny on the bed. She was supposed to be quite sick but she suddenly could recognise me and even told me alot of stuff.. then suddenly she jumped out of bed and shouted "wait, im not going to die, why are you all crying" and a whole lot of #^*@(^$ and she shouted something like "Ahhh SISTER!!I've wronged you" or something but i know clearly in my dream that she doesnt have a sister.. Then my uncle ordered everyone to bai4bai4 and -pah- all of us were holding joss sticks in our hands surrounding my granny who was still spinning around and ridiculating . After 3 bai4s she just collapsed with a howl and they say she's dead. OK and till now i can still vividly remember her face: snowy white. Then in the dream i was devastated and i went to touch her face..only to find out that I wasn't supposed to.They warned me that the last person to touch the dead will have abnormal spiritual linkage with the deceased. -yulp--shiver- OK.. then as we leave the ward..and i turned back and look at the corpse.. she suddenly opened her eyes and i could read her mouth, "I will look for you in your dreams... -smiles-" -gooose bumpsss- Then i went to look for my mother and told her what happened and repeated my granny's words to her "他说他会托梦给我的..."
and then i guess im too freaked out to continue dreaming so i woke up and found myself really mouthing the words. that dream was totally REAL.. cldn't tell the difference. And i was so afraid i would live in that dream forever..cauz everything that happens.. i feel the real FEAR, HOPELESSNESS, ANXIETY. I didn't even dare to move an inch on the bed lo. ONce i close my eyes i see HER snowy-white face.
Oh another weird chapter of the dream is that i went with my family to shop for some swim suit and there was this FIRE near the shophouse we were at. Then dunno why i heard "CUT". oh well.. it's a movie we were shooting hhaha and my dad [in the dream] said "you know your brother? he is nominated as the BEST NEWBIE at the 金马奖 for his excellence performance as the fire victim being burnt to death inthe movie~!" -_- trust my imagination and what all my brain has been thinking about these few days.
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25/09/2004
And did i ever said i HATED to SHOP?WoOT! let me tell you now that due to SOME hormonal changes taking place inside me hahah i think i like to shop now! Wahahah and im just feeling quite HIGH right now after wasting some 100 bucks on clothes and such at OG w my mom haha and letting both my brothers wait at the toy department for 2 hours!hohoho!
WHy cant they just give back all the papers at one go? dammit i think i'll hate the LONG procedure of slowing revealing the unbearable sight of my fate. Just kill me with one shot will yoU?! I dreamt of them giving back the physics paper and MR chan scolding us on stage regarding some very OBVIOUS hints in the paper that i din manage to get. hahah n my whole section B scored only 10 marks or so? IT WAS SCARY!
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24/09/2004
awsome 3!~ 
WoooT! HAHhaha i LOVE my days after prelims![though im jinxed] hahaha but guess what, im addicted to ppoool!Yeap with the above "bAmmboo"gang + aileen who came for a while. wah and the bill total up to 40 bucks [sccarry] but who cares. Hahha and xinyi scarred me with her SUPER CHEESY nacho!! then after dinner we cldnt resist it but went back for another game [juz me and xinyi la] hahah.
Right and staying at home wasnt THAT bad aft all. Hhaha at least i get to complete my LONG LOST RPG! heeheeee and i had the chance to even restart and complete in the same day! Lucky my computer din overload man! ahhaha
Oh the neoprint above this was taken on wednesdaE! hhaah aft mtg in sch had nothing to do so went to heeren to SHOP for a shirt [which i dont dare to buy] and hhah have lunch at sakae. haaha 2 more days left to the most feared TRUTH
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21/09/2004
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18/09/2004
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17/09/2004
Monya! That THING is SOOOO cute!! Must Watch! hhaha it distracted me from physics todae at lu's house. And woot went for my last mid-autumn festival celebration in NY.
The UFOs assembled and hovered above the earth's night sky.
"AhPOid Star B75?"
"Betopa Star 779?"
"We are here because of a SMOKE SIGNAL"
And there they are, moving up and down, left and right, back and forth, while 5 earthlings admiring the night sky became fascinated by the movable stars.
Right beside them, there were 4 GUYS from the opp. Being so loserish, nearly set fire to the grass while trying to light up some rocket-like-thing.
"OH there's another smoke signaL! The assembly's cancelled"
The smoke obsecured the nice vision of night sky and the 5 gals nearly choked to death. Blame it on their luck to irritate these gals on a BIO EXAM day.
"OI!-stares-PLEASE STOP bURNING OUR GRASS!"
"U wanna burn go back you school and BURN!"
"PLEASE clear up the WASTE you have left behind!"
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14/09/2004
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13/09/2004
餐桌两边黑咖啡冒着烟
曲折翻腾的弧线模糊了双眼
你习惯没变 手指头敲打着玻璃杯
一整夜 不曾看我一眼
那条项炼 软弱摊在眼前
亲手系上的思念 被你放了线
空荡的胸前 是他准备要接手的世界
专程来告别 连再见都心不在焉
你在一公尺不到的面前
手拼命挥还是往下坠
眼神那么绝 冻结一切不让我挽回
我在一公尺之外的世界
一辈子回不了的原点
我这才发现 你离我有多么远
餐桌两边没交集的情节
看着你度日如年 等我说再见
你神情没变 把距离扩大的好遥远
一公尺就好像一万个光年
只有成全让你离开我身边
燕尾蝶 （must listen!)
兴高采烈的破蛹 华丽新生的冲动 寻找灿烂 禁地 美梦
主宰爱情的是谁 奋不顾身的扑火 就算轮回 只为 衬托
你笑 你哭 你的动作 都是我的圣经 珍惜的背颂
我喜 我悲 我的生活 为你放弃自由 要 为 你 左右
你是火 你是风 你是织网的恶魔
破碎的 燕尾蝶 太多最后的美梦
你是火 你是风 你是天使的诱惑
让我做燕尾蝶 拥抱最后的美梦 让我短暂快乐很感动
兴高采烈的破蛹 冲破心神的冲动 寻找爱情世界 美梦
既然不是毛毛虫 就要壮烈的扑火 短短青春 要像 烟火
自生 自爱 自个挥霍 挥霍我的色采 在你 的天空
你想 你说 而要我做 其实我很快乐 全都因为
你是火 你是风 你是织网的恶魔
破碎的 燕尾蝶 太多最后的美梦
你是火 你是风 你是天使的诱惑
让我做 燕尾蝶 拥抱最后的美梦 让我快乐让我痛
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12/09/2004
http://noracom.net/eng/fortune/color_cheki1.php
You are Black Sheep who has soft sensitive atmosphere and kind of feminine attraction.[yea right]
You are not shy even towards men, and are very sociable.[hoho really?]
But unlike the atmosphere you possess, you are not that romantic and dreamy.[hahah dream on]
You are extremely realistic in that you try to build a steady business and safe family. [yea.. quite]
You have great will power, and are very strong woman.[hahahah]
You can manipulate men tactfully. [-_- im not convinced]
You can serve them well to make them successful in life, and you will not easily give up half way.[serve?]
Nevertheless, if it is about yourself, you tend to be loose, selfish and indecisive. [loose..haha]
You can make objective decisions, and will not be influenced by emotions.[ok..]
While you place importance on harmony of the people, you do not forget to subtly promoting yourself.[AA!tt's me]
Therefore, you tend to have wide contact of people from early age.[uhhuh...]
You possess both dark and light side of personality, and that character comes out according to situation.[wow]
You can feel sorry for something, but you tend to be obstinate and not able to adapt to people around you.[ya correct..]
You have rather strong maternal feelings towards men, and tend to take too much care of them.[well.. perhaps course i've got brothers?]
This makes other people feel being interfered. [what can i do?]
So you should be careful.[...good advice]
After getting married, you will work hard on cores, and become a good wife.[housework is NONO for me]
Although, you become devoted to your husband, when both of you get to middle age, your relationship may change, so you need to think up something to avoid such situation.[hahah too far away, dont think i will even live till then]
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11/09/2004
PeGgy! Hahha cs!peggy waves paws!! -eh paiseh la digicam spoil.. so just smack her flat on the scanner. but she HAD a nice nose k?-
Your IQ score is 129 [when i took the test 2 years ago.. it was 13X.see la i said im stupider]
This number is based on a scientific formula that compares how many questions you answered correctly on the Classic IQ Test relative to others.
Your Intellectual Type is Visual Mathematician. This means you are gifted at spotting patterns — both in pictures and in numbers. These talents combined with your overall high intelligence make you good at understanding the big picture, which is why people trust your instincts and turn to you for direction — especially in the workplace. And that's just some of what we know about you from your test results.
http://web.tickle.com/tests/uiq/
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10/09/2004
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08/09/2004
Right.. that is to remind myself :] i feel unprepared for prelims up till now. Oh no. I think im no where near my target.. mabbe only at my mid year lvl :13, 15? goodness.. must reduce by 4 points!
Alright enough grumbling. haha. but to those who care, im fine k? still cheery and bouncy -boing- hahah just that i'm afraid that my mind would rust for the past 3 days. well, be my lubricating oil then! -ok not funny, im chem-saturated-
Squadmates! Thanks for what you all did today, my greatest gratitude :) well.. it's just me that i don't know how to show it la.. but really.. im TOUCHED and grateful :] You gals rock my world!
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05/09/2004
AHHH 胜者非我乃为寇，已矣呼兮，已矣呼！
SO..took a test!I think it's quite accurate
4 aspects of my personality type
Spontaneous Ideas Head Extrovert
Summary of Big-Thinkers <- ME!
Outspoken, ingenious and bored by routine
Think of themselves as talkative, curious and self-sufficient
May neglect the routine work required to make their plans successful
More about Big-Thinkers
Big Thinkers are always looking for the next big idea or opportunity. They’re adept at spotting trends and thinking on their feet. Big Thinkers like to jump in and find innovative solutions to complex problems and are good at developing strategies for the future.
Big Thinkers are usually curious, logical and energetic. This chatty group enjoys a good debate and asserting their opinions. Sometimes others may find the way they express their ideas too abrupt or challenging.
In situations where they can't use their talents or are unappreciated, Big Thinkers may be rude, critical of others or rebellious. Under extreme stress, Big Thinkers can become preoccupied with unimportant details and lose sight of the 'big picture'.
Big Thinkers may ignore important details in their plans and overlook the impact their ideas have on the people around them.
Big-Thinker Careers
The entrepreneurial spirit of the Big Thinkers often leads them to seek new challenges; this is often more important to them than working in a particular field or a specific career.
AND MORE
Social
Your results suggest that Social type work might suit your interests and preferences.
Social types like roles that focus on helping, teaching or supporting others and very much prefer working with people to working with things or ideas. They tend to prefer working in teams and like to feel they are doing something useful. Typical roles for social types include teacher, counsellor, nurse, minister of religion, clinical psychologist or police officer.
Investigative
Your results suggest that Investigative type work might suit your interests and preferences.
Investigative types prefer thinking to action, they like working with information and may prefer working with ideas rather than with people. They tend to like jobs in which they can research, analyse and solve problems (or come up with new problems!) and prefer using their brains to their interpersonal skills. Typical roles that suit Investigative types are scientist, engineer, laboratory worker, computer programmer, pharmacist and vet.
Enterprising
Your results suggest that Enterprising type work might suit your interests and preferences.
Enterprising types like persuading and influencing people as well as controlling, managing and selling to them. They like to take a lead and are often quite motivated and ambitious but may be impatient and can find rules and detail frustrating. They tend to favour roles such as salesperson, manager, estate agent, supervisor, lawyer, advertising or marketing executive and often like positions that have status and prestige.
Realistic
Your results suggest that Realistic type work is less likely to suit your interests.
Realistic types generally prefer action to words, they like physical activity and may prefer working with things to working with people. They tend to favour jobs where they can work with their hands or produce things, and often like outdoor work. Typical roles that suit Realistic types are gardener, mechanic, driver, electrician, farmer, sportsperson, skilled trades, labourers and some engineering and military roles.
Conventional
Your results suggest that Conventional type work is less likely to suit your interests.
Conventional types are happy to work within systems and large organisations and tend to focus on accuracy and efficiency, preferring to know what is expected of them. They tend to like things to be organised and predictable and are often involved in roles that involve recording, sorting, documenting and organising. Typical roles for Conventional types include the range of administrative and clerical roles (e.g. in the government and financial sectors) as well as accountancy, banking, bookkeeping, secretarial work and some inspecting roles.
This brief questionnaire can't tell you exactly what you should do. It only suggests work areas to think about that may match the way you like to work but it can't tell you whether you have the skills and qualifications for these jobs.
To take things further you should consult your local careers service or your local library. Use the right-hand navigation bars at the top of this page to find links to other careers sites.
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04/09/2004
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03/09/2004
Auditory : 53%Visual : 46%Left : 50%Right : 50%
Kai, your hemispheric dominance is equally divided between left and right brain, while you show a moderate preference for auditory versus visual learning, signs of a balanced and flexible person.
Your balance gives you the enviable capacity to be verbal and literate while retaining a certain "flair" and individuality. You are logical and compliant but only to a degree. You are organized without being compulsive, goal-directed without being driven, and a "thinking" individual without being excessively so.
The one problem you might have is that your learning might not be as efficient as you would like. At times you will work from the specific to the general, while at other times you'll work from the general to the specific. Sometimes you will be logical in your approach while at other times random. Since you cannot always control the choice, you may experience frustrations not normally felt by persons with a more defined and directed learning style.
You may also minimally experience conflicts associated with auditory processing. You will be systematic and sequential in your processing of information, you will most often focus on a single dimension of the problem or material, and you will be more reflective, i.e., "taking the data in" as opposed to "devouring" it.
Overall, you should feel content with your life and yourself. You are, perhaps, a little too critical of yourself - and of others - while maintaining an "openness" which is redeeming. Indecisiveness is a problem and your creativity is not in keeping with your potential. Being a pragmatist, you downplay this aspect of yourself and focus on the more immediate, the more obvious and the more functional.
I just hope that i can really really survive well for the Amaths paper.. it is IMPORTANT. The SS paper was ok.. just that i mistook the double chin of tt old lady as a grin on her face and my inference was then completely off-point... Hmm.. that leaves me with only ONE inference and i guess 2 marks for the first part is GONE. Bullseye for spotting topics though.. hahah but i thought the teachers made it quite obvious [ahh.. no no .. it's just that we are SMART gals]. Hhaha oh and i thought mrs ye* is growing to be more "adorable" these days :)
Ah and i saw ms yeo grinning to her maths class students right after morning assembly at the staircase.. hhaha and somehow i sense her "concern" too. I was wondering where mrs chang of when i was suddenly reminded of her "lucky bread" hhaha.
hahh Amaths paper was tricky and abit corny haha. i just hope my alternative solution to that 6 marks questions can be accepted, cauz it really made sense to me. i was amused by the "Kuardian" and "Datsons" hahah it really really sounded like what mrs chang will come up with :]
I dread the long 9 days that are coming.. MUG mUg and muG.. especially the last 3 days.. CLIT cLIT and more CLIT!! AHhh.. clit and amaths is such a sucky combination!!!
距离 林俊杰
在距离三公里的位置
我在这里 想像心中的你的呼吸
同样的熄着灯的窗子
你在哪里 听不到我呼吸着分离
我走向前你看不见 真的遥远
就连叹息 影子听见 也是无言
你走向前 我看不见 你的思念
你和我之间
刻着一条界限不曾有改变
保留着三公分的距离
我的眼里 充满着整个我爱的你
坐在同一张四方桌子边
你的眼里 读不到倦着我的信息
我走向前 你看不见 真的遥远
就连叹气 影子听见 也是无言
当爱离开之前 能多苦 能多深 能多甜
距离是你走过我身边
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