The WriTer* in Me!
31/08/2004
Teachers' DAY :] Dunno whether it's my moodswing or whateva, seriously, I didn't have much fun. Hope the teachers did. The class party.. all that i can sae is.. the food is great :] The concert after that was cool in the beginning but too much dance stuff in the middle tt it got a little boring -not tt i dont appreciate, im just stating a fact- then it got hyped up by the teachers' dance!!! IDOLS! haha nv knew some teachers were tt funky.
went off w syl to mug at starbucks PS n to learn to be a 2nd-hand smoker. and tt's my day and i dunno what im doing. i feel i've achieved nothing at all. very.. empty :(
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30/08/2004
KAILING CAN'T BAKE but SHE CAN COOK!i swear tt statement is true.
STOP doubting my abilities! I HATE IT when people don't trust me. Right, you are going to tell me that it needs to be built and its my fault for tt mistake and all other almighty-logical stuff, FINE! I HATE it when you dun know the full detail and you just go there and crap and tarnish my reputation. right i admit i care alot about reputation.. cauz i have a ceratin level of pride and ego to uphold. i dont know who you are but im just going to forget abt this matter. if you eva happen to read this, pls la.. next time think and UNDERSTAND the WHOLE thing first alright? Aarggh whateva, just don't ask me anything if you just choose to doubt me.
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26/08/2004
Alright then i went on to the swinging thing and after measuring the length of the string and after using the metre rule and pushed it to the end of the table and god knows the measuring cylinder filled with water is right there to block the way and -bang- it toppled over the table and water splashed on the floor.
MALU2. After the change over, there was a mirror experiment la. and when i was doing the graph, i just happily pushed it to one side of the table.. AGAIN. This time i pushed my french cruve foward and god knows why the mirror was so eager to commit suicide.. and it toppled off the bench AGAIN and smash it went onto the ground. NOT ME!! -tt was the first reaction- hahah so maluing lor. Sorry to all people in the lab.. i think i was very very noisy!!
Aiya tt stupid shermeen was like "u broke a mirror?? 7 years of bad luck LEH! ok 'O' levels first year..think u won't make it to JC already.. go poly la.. then 2nd or 3rd year ..OH NO u can't get diploma.. then university.. aiyo u wont even be able to make it. Aiya.. maybe u go ITE leh :p" -screams- CHOI AH! but actually 7 years is qutie long leh.. but seriuosly, anyone heard of tt saying before?? mabbe it's just shermeen.?! -but think again.. if she hasn't gonet hrough it.. how would she know? :D-
Bleah whatever.. just don't sit in front of me during rpac k? I jinx u! mabbe i'll drop a knife or somethin during BIO prac :s
Oh and i watched Singapore idol. hahah david yeo is So act cute!! hhaha but i like :] haha at least yifang agrees with me that david de cruz looks sexy. hee hee and i think olinda cho, david yeo and the jeassea gal will get it!
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23/08/2004
Ok then went J8 to pig out and i felt much better and i had a haircut in rage. and.. it turns out bad.. it's really an unlucky day. being 放ed 鸽子 in the morning and all.. today just isn't going right lo.
AHH 越讲越气！-smashes table- I don't wanna go school tmr! waste time!
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21/08/2004
After going to PA, me joe and jy went to toapayoh central to eat.. and woot there's tv there and we were just in time to catch the match. Channel I was there to film the audience. ya.. basically the whole kopitiam of people were watching the miserable 2 TVs. You could see the atmosphere changing. At first people were so confident that JW will win and are all drinking their coffee.. devouring their mee soup slowly..
UNTIL this 5th match that she didn't win. Then everyone started being very very concerned about the match and people just don't wanna leave their seats (including me and JY). As soon as JW scored a point you can hear the whole kopitiam of people cheering, clapping.. and when the PRK scored a point you can hear their dissappointment.
it got really tense during the 7th match. PRK1, SIN 1, PRK2, SIN2 and so on.. until the 5th or 6th point, JW scored 2 points in a row and the person beside me (not JY) screamed while almost the whole kopitiam cheered.
Haiz.. but too bad.. she lost. I still cannot believe it. I think many others too. Hahha once the match finish everyone just clear out of the kopitiam and sudddenly the kopitiam looks very very empty..hhaa.I think I jinx whoeva i support. Tt time i watched susilo play ponsana, he lost.. this time i watch JW play gaint Kim.. she lost.. AHHhhh!i shan't watch the 3rd 4th placing match!
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20/08/2004
Oral todae was ok. I guess im lucky to have gotten a familar topic that I can really crap on. hha ait's about research and science so of course i'll talk about genetics and bio-science. Hhaa
SAd that cross-country is cancelled. Haiz.. people were saying it's a bad omen when it started to rain at around 3?haha -shrugs- but the examiners were really friendly:] [though i think i flunked my pic discussion]
Ok n dance wasn't as good as expected. Cldn't hear the music therefore coordination isn't quite there. What a waste. To think it ends just like that!Nvm..there is still one more chance to showcase.. hiek hiek hiek
Oh 好人好事!! Huixuan was really nice and sweet to give me a card.. haha with Neo printed on it! Thanks dear!haha and huixuan, doreen, chieh hwee, hongzhen, gwen helped me collate a list of alternative vocabulary.. hha athough i didn't really use them but thanks for the effort. haha recalling now i think i was being too demanding.. heehee so sorry!
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19/08/2004
Well anw the dance showcase today was fantastic!hhaa i never knew some people cld dance tt well! haha n mrs xiezhi is -_-" haha basically diaoing everything n tt is a dance!heehee no offence ok? haha PQ's umbrealla dance is super duper ADORABLE!hahaha i had a good laugh. hahaah n sexy gal has a sexy dance -whheepeep!- woo hhoo. haha PE is tmr! haha dunno why Im excited! afterall we have been practising for.. 3 weeks or so? haha from nothing to now.. I can't wait DANCE!woot!
But then again my oral is tmr :s. im scared. especially when im the last person of the group and the teacher will be most probably very tired and bored.. OH MY how am i to impress them? AGHH! -cool down man- ok.. but looking at Doreen today.. she seems quite ok after the oral so i presume nothing bad's gonna happen -prays-
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16/08/2004
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15/08/2004
Well anw my day has been spent quite fruitfully i guess... those 5 books.. i have conquered 2 of them[almost, cauz now im taking a break].. 3 more to go! [and i only plan to browse through 2 of them] -shrug- 17 days to prelims! JIAYOU!
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14/08/2004
anyway, dad's back from taiwan ahha and he bought this super childish thinggie for me!! It's suppsoed to be a discman holder la.. hhaa it's a pig in duckling suit and it looks super corny! to think my dad-oh-mightly dad will buy this kinda thing!hahah
and -sniff- im sick. like 7 days before my oraL!n i wasted 15 hrs of my beautiful saturday either feeling sick or slping!Darn tt flu virus!n my beautiful -ahem- voice sounds crowy!
Oh n something very paiseh! haha i was actually posing for something which i shouldnt n i got recorded on tape! hahaall thanks to my peacock personality?! BQ was recording something with her cam haha i thought it was for her own use so i just cheekily posed in front of the cam. haha she actually recorded n submitted the tape to M.N.Ong! -faints- so dui liaN!
Duck BAG 
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09/08/2004
But the going back part was horrifying. It's just like a riot lo.. that i don't wanna participate.. people shouting and stuff. and i got stuck at the stadium for like 1 hour before i could get onto the MRT! haha but the whole stadium was magnificent!!They had this Nokia torchlight thing that they give for free in the goodie bag [with lots of other stuff including SLIM water and disocunt coupons that discount 50c off beef noodles]. Yea and once the night sky sets in, thousands of people waved the torch light synchronised and -pah- the sight was amazing. Too bad mine dropped out from my bag to the grass patch below..and haha zinc was kind enough to give me hers -i feel a bit childish- uhhuh what can I do.. I'm a BIG KID!
Actually the place that we settled in wasn't even suited for the entire parade lor! What's the USE! we were sitting beside the giant stage , right behind the ramp where the STARS exit the stage [ that's the only good part.. you get to see them] yup and it's also a great angle to secretly spy MPs and Mr LeeS. Yup other than that you can only see the butts of the performers [ OH and WEIWEN! I saw YOU in the parade!wahahha look cooL!haha got picture of the NP contingent!] well ya.. and the fireworks.. it was like just behind us and for the whole of the fireworks iwe had to turn 180 degrees and OUCh my neck hurts. the worse thing is that there is this water-spraying thinggie beside us that is supposed to create this mist effect.. ya but it kept spraying water on us instead and the cameras were all wet!
I watched Mr GCT's national day message last night and haha i guess to me it's just like a farewell speech. -shurgs-
Yawn.. i did nothing yesterday and i plan to slog it off today. PLAN.. haiz but i feel like going somehwere and not juz stuck at home.
Play this game! Quite dumb but great time filler!
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08/08/2004
I say things will never be the way we like it to be. And accept it. We have to treat changes, separation as well as reunion as they come... I'm sorry if I seem so heartless to say this but putting in hardwork and being faithful isn't everything that determines success. Neither is getting frustrated with all and walk off with a "I don't care" an option to a problem.
Once i was very confused about what I should do and I lost focus on what is really important to me. Now that I've realised, i guess it's a little too late. It's really a pity that I had a chance to do so much and yet I've done so little. I had dreams before coming thus far but once i had the ability to fufill them, I don't seem to be able to visualise them any more. Now that I am leaving, it's becoming clearer and clearer.
Sigh, it's inevitable that things go through ups and downs, I'm afraid that it is our generation that will have to face up to the reality of a period of decrement. Everything seems to be going from bad to worse, in our hands. Is this the result of my young arrogance? I seem to have failed in achieving the things that I have wanted to succeed the most, what's the use of others? Yet I still believe that I have the ability to do something. I won't stop at this. yes i agree that if you wanna do something, do it once and for all. Yet i know the limits of how much I can push, of how much can be done as of now. People might not see it the way i do, it takes small inches to a long journey.
I am a person who wants to win in everything.. and I believe I can. Nothing stops me from my ambitions once i set my heart to it. I'm sorry to have caused harm to people in a way or so in the journey... for I aim high. Criticise all you want, it is just too bad that we don't share the same goals in life.
词,曲: 周杰伦
翻着我们的照片,想念若隐若现,
去年的冬天,我们笑得很甜
,看着你哭泣的脸,对着我说再见,
来不及听见,你已走得很远,
也许你已经放弃我,也许已经很难回头,
我知道自己错过,请再给我一个理由,说你不爱我,
就算是我不懂,能不能原谅我,
请不要把分手当作你的请求,
我知道坚持要走是你受伤的藉口,
请你回头,我会陪你一直走到最后,
就算没有结果,我也能够随,
我知道你的痛,是我给的承诺,
你说给过我笑容,沉默是因为包容,
如果要走,请你记得我,
如果难过,请你忘了我.
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02/08/2004
七里香
窗外的麻雀
在电线杆上多嘴
你说这一句
很有夏天的感觉
手中的铅笔
在纸上来来回回
我用几行字形容你是我的谁
秋刀鱼 的滋味 猫跟你都想了解
初恋的香味就这样被我们寻回
那温暖 的阳光 像刚摘的鲜艳草莓
你说你舍不得吃掉这一种感觉
雨下整夜 我的爱溢出就像雨水
院子落叶 跟我的思念厚厚一叠
几句是非 也无法将我的热情冷却
你出现在我诗的每一页
雨下整夜 我的爱溢出就像雨水
窗台蝴蝶 像诗里纷飞的美丽章节
我接着写 把永远爱你写进诗的结尾
你是我唯一想要的了解
那饱满 的稻穗 幸福了这个季节
而你的脸颊像田里熟透的蕃茄
你突然 对我说 七里香的名字很美
我此刻却只想亲吻你倔强的嘴
害怕 林俊杰
我突然觉得有点怕
爱跟生活的一切
你以为我知道怎么拆开
我们的想法落差
我的爱是说停不能停
已经浓得不能说是曾经
也可说出我是错的
爱未曾变成真的
也没探到多少你需要的爱
我不再去执着 我是谁
或是我在夜里掉的眼泪
也可说我看不开的
为你我能做的
竟还没让你相信是爱情 左右你我
我哭泣都时也会爱
别逼自己不掉泪
这往历不只是用你
这往历我也曾着拼了命的守着
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