The WriTer* in Me!
31/07/2004
Went to the HC carnival after that with jk. GooAH i was cheated by the rojak man!! 3 bucks leh.. for 3 pieces of youtiao, 3 pieces of pineapple, 7 pieces of cucumber and a few drops of the gravY!! WTH.. and we really found nothing interesting to play / do there so we spent all the 10 bucks [MINE] on food. Hah.. and jk thot there's gonna be nice food there and rejected mrs ch**'s offer of packeted lunch [oh and we met mrs ch** there! w her daughter] OH man.. i think i really have very bad memory.. i am starting to forget names already.. i nearly forgot ruomei at Nats track... this time i forgot my senior in HC's name..sheesh. Wanted to say hi but.. i just cannot recall her name -_- Mabbe someday i'll call out .. "WHO AM I?" yea actually i dun really know who i am:] im nt who i was anw
After that went Gl's house for the dance practice. Ahhaha i look like monkey when i dance.. bleaugh!!i realise i jump too much. Oh great now im sick of hiphop. hahhaa.. and after 4 hours of dancing.. we havent finish learning the chorus.. [though i spent another 2 hours at home to finish it]. ARGGGhhh how am i goign to have time for revising prelims!
btw yifang n waiyee said that im weird these days. like depressed. hahah trust them to notice that. Well i dun know why. Mabbe im bored and lonely?tsk.. it's not external.. "you can keep me company but i know you are not exactly with me"<-it's that kind of feeling.tsk
YOU just do NOT understand. I aprreciate this quality of yours but hey!this isnt what i need! such thing should not be said. do YOU know it hurts?
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28/07/2004
Hhaha it was FUNNN!!! though the tying of banner wasn't exactly enjoyable.. neither was the lunch.. but when it all started it was totally cool dude!! haha n it drizzled and rained. and poured!! haha then it stopped.n it rained again!! hahha i was having so much fun in the rain lor! Yea but the migraine after that was my retribution i guess..I was like knocking my head against the seat and i freaked huixuan out! I thought i'll have a fever but too bad i cant force a MC out. I would very badly want one. hahah.oh and i saw alot of seniors at national stadiumm.. the whole lot of them.. quite scary sia.oh and im TANNED!AGAIN! -oh i posted this like 2 days ago-
JJ was here!! and jinxed some1 :] Wahahah and anw Yifang and i got liek SUPER DUPER HIGH [though i dun really like him] hahha but yea.. at least he waved in our direction lah. And i got lingzhi's autograph.. oh speaking of autograph.. B38..where's mine?
People sometimes cave in to the emotion drive and often use "I can't help it" as an excuse to what has been done. Think again. Why not turn the situation around and start trying to say "I can" and there's bound to be something that we can do
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20/07/2004
I've taken a step back and looked at things as a broader, bigger picture. Everything seems clear now. So tranquil that the serenity is rather awkward, very awkward. I can hardly feel anger, fustration, sorrow... just silence.And i don't quite like it :s and.. there is nothing you can do about it :] -sigh-
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18/07/2004
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17/07/2004
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15/07/2004
my love，晚安就别再为难
别管我会受伤
想开体谅我已经习惯
不然又能怎样？
这个城市太会说谎爱情只是昂贵的橱窗
沿路华丽灿烂陈列甜美幻象
谁当真谁就上当
竟然以为你会不一样但凭什么你要不一样
因为寂寞太冷虚构出的温暖
没理由能撑到天亮
前进转弯我跌跌撞撞
在这迷宫打转
死心失望会比较简单
却又心有不甘
这个城市太会伪装爱情就像霓虹灯一样
谁离开之后却把灯忘了关让梦作得太辉煌
以为能够留你在身旁但是谁肯留在谁身旁
一首情歌都比一个亲吻更长
这就叫做好聚好散
别说你对我感到愧疚别说你会永远想念我
我很知道孤单这条路怎么走
请你不要安慰我
my love，晚安别放在心上
我只受了点伤
只是受了点伤
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14/07/2004
Hmm i like to kope smth from my jnr's blog.. thinks it makes alot of sense:
Are your palms sweaty, is your heart racing and
is your voice caught within your chest?? -
It isn't love, it's LIKE.
You can't keep your eyes or hands off of
her/him.
It isn't love, it's LUST.
Are you proud, and eager to show her/him off?
It isn't love, it's LUCK.
Do you want her because you know she's/he's
there??
It isn't love, it's LONELINESS.
Are you with her/him because it's what everyone
wants?
It isn't love, it?s LOYALTY.
Are you with her because she/he kissed you, or
held your hand?
It isn't love, it's LOW CONFIDENCE.
Do you stay for her/him confessions of love,
because you don't want to hurt her/him?
It isn't love, it's PITY.
Do you belong to her/him because the sight of
her/him makes your heart skip a beat?
It isn't love, it's INFATUATION.
Do you pardon her faults because you care about
her/him?
It isn't love, it's FRIENDSHIP.
Do you tell her/him every day she is the only
one you think of?
It isn't love, it's a LIE.
Are you willing to give up all of your favorite
things for her sake?
It isn't love, it's CHARITY.
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Does your heart ache and break when she's sad?
Then it's LOVE.
Do you cry for her/his pain, even when
she's/he's strong?
Then it's LOVE.
Do her/his eyes see your true heart, and touch
your soul so deeply it hurts?
Then it's LOVE.
Do you stay because a blinding, incomprehensible
mix of pain and relation pulls you close and
holds you to her/him?
Then it's LOVE.
Do you accept her/his faults because it's a part
of who she/he is?
Then it's LOVE.
Are you attracted to others, but stay with
her/him faithfully without regret?
Then it's LOVE.
Would you give her/him your heart, your life,
your death??
Then it's LOVE.
(Credits to Sheila ;) )
Prelims's nearing and i SENSE it coming. Fooaawwhh it's so right in the face. I want to tell myself im ready for it.. but the truth is im not and and.. im very afraid. Look at my life now: go school.. slp during lessons..intentionally slack aft lesson..go home have dinner.. bathe..take a nap [oh it's 10!] read 12min of one subject and -pah- dead on the bed again. joelyn said something that made sense: it's not that you are tired.. just that you have slacken down. Well, may be i just lack self-discipline.. in the past i nv had the problem of self-motivating but not now. I always tell people, "it's the attitude that matters".. i thought it was easy to change at first. I realise it's kinda difficult when you really really do not like the chore. I found it easy to whom i told the saying to, cauz i was passionate about the things they were not, that made hell lot of difference. I tried telling that to myself and neh.. no use. TRY somemore! hhaa.
stress: im not nicestop thinking im all-so-perfect and supposedly kind and take it for granted! I am MEAN! yes! my score as a human being is only 73.6 - an A2! so dont expect too much from me aye?
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11/07/2004
We are Nanyang Shooting team,
and they are our supporters -kedak kedak-
[i suppose it's a quack sound from cheryls!]
We are rotting here,
and they are rotting there -kedak kedak-
[well, before the shoot and after:)was sitting in the drill shed waiting for like x hours. Seems quite fast esp. when we din have watches and i was crapping with huiyan]
We are rotting here -kedak-
They are rotting there -kedak-
We are rotting everywhere -kedak kedak-
We are shooting here -kedak-
They are cheering there -kedak-
NYST all the way -kedak kedak-
Hahha it's extremely amusing when you see cs do it with her duckie face and duckie actions!way-da-go duckie!
Then we went to Toa Payoh interchange to pig out [like aft every comp] hhaha. then i took a nap there and i turned super duber moodddy. mabbe it's the icekachang..Went back home and took a nap[attempted to] but i cant slp. I was actually talking to myself!!hahah i dunno why but i was just like being very affected by smth and someone and i just blurted out whatever i wanted to tell tt person cauz i wld nv dared to say it.-shrugs-haha i started tearing..eeeks..wat the hell has gotten over me? should go and meditate someday.Oh and i like to sleep alot nowadays -again-
it's been like half a year?and you are still trying to escape?Coward! I don't want to.. i swear. i want to be strong. but your gentleness and forbearance dissolved my armour.
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09/07/2004
Alright then funfair starts!! [this's my 1st year in NY celebrating youth day!was so excited!the previous years all busy with stuff]YUp.. haha i think our "banner" is very striking.. yes and i had quite alot of fun being walking advertisement! haha.I think im crazee..i spent like 16 bucks on the tix lo.Piang.crazzeeONE!haha but i had my hair sprayed RED n a henna painting on my arm!!WooT!haha then went to play some fishing..and collecting water.. n hahhaa dunking.HOHOHO:] Yup.. hahah then played some.. water bomb throwing and getting my henna smudged.Returned back to the stall to help out. hahah and B38 [the whole lot of em] were there. hahah i thot they buying a few only so i wanted to help em write.hahah in the end it's like a autograph session [not i sae one] hhaa thanx for the support!
heehee took this in class aft the celebration. from left me, yifang n waiyee
After the celebration.. went out w sqmates to cine. Cldnt decide where to go at first..cauz no the right time to go kbox mah.. then wanted to go bugis.but we still went pastamania in the end.Hhahaha then we screamed n shouted like mad pple while playing the "ice hockey". hahha had 3 games in all.N once the biscuit-like thing flew out of the table cauz i hit it too hard and we had to look underneath the racing game machine thing to find it. SO maluing.Then we took neoprint!
Yup thenwent to plae pool with lxinyi and angela and guolu.hahah had so many tyco scenes.. so funny!!!Guolu is even so demure playing pool!!hahah angela ah.. still look like bear la.haha xinyi n i are horny lo.-^5ives-hahaha joyce and waiyee came to join later.. mwahhahah.Joyce is punked.Red hot hair and short shorts playing pool in ulu meridian of orchard[left with smoking only]. hahah.Alright.. then on our way back.. kept taking lameo photos!!
the spot of hope!!
hahaha.conclusion.. i love today!!!
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05/07/2004
What more can i ask for? Even goodbye's a heart-warming occasion..im a really xing4 fu2 gal i guess. All i want to say is a heart-felt thank you for everything that has been bestowed on me and im really grateful. What wld my life be without this?
Sqmate: I know I will not turn out to be like that if not for NYNP.
For now Kai Ling, OUT.leaving behind a legacy -hopes- for you to continue. keep the legend going. -kl feels mystified- hhahaa
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01/07/2004
准备好了吗 九月九号九点九分两个人就要出发
不带行李 也不带牵挂 向幸福车站出发
你看窗外啊 像不像一张又一张飞过了莫内的画
让我眼睛也舍不得眨 都因为有你对吧
艾菲尔铁塔都因为恋人的约定才浪漫的呀
不管到哪 只要我身边有你就对够了 就够了 就够了
幸福车站要两个人才能到达
票根是一句回答 说跟着我你就不怕
橱窗里那件白纱 何时为我穿上了它
幸福车站没有王子骑着白马
只有真心的傻瓜 在终点为你盖个家
风雨都吹不垮 爱到有了白发You Still My Love
所有的恋人啊 幸福站快到了
别忘了真心啊 幸福站快到了
下站请带着它 幸福站快到了
9/9 this song is for you and me :]
-my brother is now talking to his friend about some injection thing. and he's complaining that some of his male classmates cried...>.<" oh well.. boys are BOYS-
OH and i slept at 11 last night, woke up at 3 to catch Euro semifinals!! OLE portugal!!! although tt own goal almost killed me but.. woohoo.. netherlands was no match for portugal lo!!NIce mAtch!!-i heard someone say ricardo is shuai4.. hahaha.. aft the suey look he had this morning.. i beg to differ-
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