The WriTer* in Me!
28/06/2004
用我的晚安陪你吃早餐
记得把想念存进扑满
我望着满天星在闪
听牛郎对织女说要勇敢
别怕我们在地球的两端
看我的问候骑着魔毯
飞用光速飞到你面前
要你能看到十字星有北极星作伴
少了我的手臂当枕头你习不习惯
你的望远望不到我北半球的孤单
太平洋的潮水跟着地球来回旋转
我会耐心地等随时欢迎你靠岸
少了我的怀抱当暖炉你习不习惯
e给你照片看不到我北半球的孤单
世界再大两颗真心就能互相取暖
想念不会偷懒我的梦通通给你保管
Yay!!mum's buying the CD for me!!OLE! OCEAN欧得洋!he has such a nice and swt voice!go d/l this song!!very nice!
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27/06/2004
Sometimes I really wonder if Im cold blooded. Ive seen quite a number of sqmates dreading POP in their blogs.. heard a few of them having no mood to do hw because POP is drawing near. Seriously, i dont feel as strongly. Not because I do not feel belonged to NYNP, not because I will not miss NYNP.. it's just that there is no need. After POP, we will still meet and lame and joke and blah, after POP i can proudly say Im from NYNP, aft POP i can say proudly these are my cadets. It's just a ceremony, an official ceremony afterall.. it doesnt mean the passion, the love ends there. Seriously for some, POP has no purpose, say if someone's heart has lost interest long ago..; howeverfor someone who still has heart, POP is nothing. True that aft POP, we might not contribute as much..but im confident to say that we have contributed much..much more than what it seems to others, we know that ourselves. Miss the things that we do.. miss going acts..miss the room yup sure i will but i wont miss sqmates.;] why should i miss em when they are right by my side?
Hhaha but then again, those reasonings wont make sense once i get emotional. hahaha..I did not cry for the past 3+yrs in NP.. not a single occasion.. even if the rest of my sqmates are like sobbing already. haha i tried to force myself to erm fit into the occasion but nah.. i cant. BUT last yr POP i nearly did..when we sang the song composed by huiyan. This yr during CF, when we were singing linger.. n sqmates were holding hands i nearly cried again. The night may be cold, but i could feel that all our hearts are warm, with passion still burning for np..it's a pity that it will have to end officially nxt sunday.
人们往往在失去了之后才后悔没有去珍惜...但我就因为太过珍惜而在失去的时候更加难过。如果能够重新选择，我宁愿不曾拥有一切，那我就不必珍惜，以后就不必难过。it's always like that and there, you have a person who has love-phobia. hahhaa. I'm afraid of losing pple ;]
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24/06/2004
Danger 1: What is common sensical to you, might not be so to him / her. So.. conflict might be very very common different at the start, what you deem as correct is totally different from tt person
Danger 2: What can be normally agreed upon by 2 pple base on mutual understanding might turn out to have quite a drastic difference. What to do??different frequency mah
Compare personal-development and organisational-development
Which is more important at sch level?? cant decide.NOt all agree on a point. Well.. personally i am for personal development. I wont look at what this person can contribute to this organisation but what can he/she learn at the course of the work, what are some potential areas of development for him/her? How can he/she stretch her potentials in this area and whether he/she has the passiona n enthusiaism in the area.. so as to use the time in it to its fullest.
I know the nightmare one can cause if he lacks enthusiaism n passion in an area of work and i seriously think that if anyone has no passion for smth already.. pls give up. If it's a individual thing, u are short changing yourself of a chance to try out other stuff and you are basically wasting ur time. If it's a team thing, u are juz a burden to other ppl. And there is no point spending too much time in developing a INTEREST in the thing so as to develop passion. Once u have enough contact with the subject, u can very well judge whether you have the interest.gah...
WARM!very warm n im tired now.. hhaa. energy burn out liao. have i done enough? do i deserve a rest? I cannot afford to rest now. Really cant. But im dead tired. Right.. now i cant differentiate lazy and tired.. i just want to sleep.
i guess the easier way out for me is .. to escape? where to? hhaa... i wont la.. say say only la.
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22/06/2004
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21/06/2004
Anw yaY!NYST got into finals! Must train harder!
PK course today. -nothing much to mention-
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19/06/2004
Im kinda losing touch in everything haha.Congrats to 10th SLC.. it's successfully over! Went to SLC on friday..hmm pretty impressed yup.. at the GA. Then the finale.. if anyone thinks it's great entirely, i beg to differ la. haha i guess someone spoke the truth: is the theme of this finale "homosexual"? haha shall not comment much.. i was pretty erm appalled. Yup. But on the other hand,i was amused as well la. ;] haha then during the GA we went out to heeren to buy presents for the OT this year. after which we went to holland V to collect the cake. heehee n dumb us we got in the wrong direction n had to take taxi back to TCHS..well but i had to leave b4 passing the presents to them so.too bad.n i seriously think there is nothing wrong in all the comments made.. i mean ALL.sigh well mabbe im intruding too much.
Oh n IM BROKE! terribly broke! pple owe me $$ n i guess i owe others more! gah!
and ah.. games day today. played the usual NP ball games la.. hhaa which proved me to be old. basketball, frisbee, rugby, obstacle course.. hahaha basketball i cant even aim.. stamina going downhill..frisbee cant even catch.. rugby juz running here and there.. n OOOPS.. i tripped one sec 1.. sorry! :[ obstacles course.. haha anit maluing.. was piggy backing liann then i think when she came down, she pulled my shorts down too.. hahah lucky no one seeing ;[. fashion relay.. i was suppose to pretend to be ba1mei3li4.. haha which i suck at doing.. and apparently a few guides walked pass and laugh their ao at me.. bleaugh.. where's my face?
Then went for CIP at orchard. had to go to this ulu cuppage plaza thingg in orchard hhaa which is behind orchard plaza. alright n we finalyl found it. then went off to PS w Cs and start 'begging' for money! haha n we made friends with the uncle selling ice cream by the roadside.. cauz we were somewhere near him and we bought his ice cream and he donated to us. haha then got once he went to toilet and ask CS to help tend the stall. hahha then CS went away n ask me to tend the stall n got this ang moh came in front of the stall. i stare at him he stare at me.. hhaa n aft 1min the uncle still nt back.;[ haha i nearly wanted to scoop a few scoops for him :p then mabbe can kop commission from the uncle.
yep and we met with all kinds of pple.. those who look like lao da of some Secret society donated alot.. while those who can afford a new starhub PLAN HP dun even wanna donate. got nice westerners who donated all their coins [$1 $1 $1 !! $_$] n lil kids who dig all their $1 50c 20c coins out and picked a 5c coin for me.. and took 4 stickers. haha got pple who come to u automatically to danote 2 bucks.. got pple who siam at the sight of you 2m away.. u chase aft them they treat u as transparent one. well well.. hha aOH n i met xin tian and parents there!! haha what a small world.. haha but too bad.. din see xinqin :[
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17/06/2004
why dont u understand??
speaking of events, POP is in.. 2 weeks' time? time's passing real fast like no one's business. Was w angela playing frisbee tt day.. brings back all the fond memories in sec 2.. doing those toopid crap things that no one really cherished..hhaa rmbed tt we buried some objects under the 'swing' near the basketball court. hhaa the problem is we dun rmb at which corner did we burry tt thing.
kl is currently learning how to love and appreciate. Have patience
looking back it all seems amazing where i used to get all the enthusiaism and passion for stuffs.. for studying, NP, council blah blah blah cauz my problem is i cannot find as much of them now. the people in it??the challenges they post?sense of achievement? Yea.. i guess it's the sense of achievement.. the urge to be a winner! but i guess im still a loser at the end of the day..enslaved by these obligations.. never really experienced what i truly desire.. wait a second, what do i truly desire? hhaa *shrugs*.
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10/06/2004
1.I shall go JC
2.Try to get a scholarship[meaning have to get a S paper]
3.Get into NUS
4. Get a psycology major law minor [or the other way round]
5. Get a MbA
6. Get into SPF!
backup plan: be in the business world...
well haha nvm. Rather emotional nowadays. well anw, council camp's over!it was certainly memorable if i look back [though it wasnt really TT fun when it first started-was very tired]haha it's extremely rewarding to see juniors just improve through the activities you set and you know the activity has an impact on them. That's a really great sense of satisfaciton.And as usual, i was tt meany trainer that always scolds pple. =) tt's my trademark.haha.haiz.. smtimes i wonder, what a sin! hahaha.Mehehhee.. they will nv know what kinda things we do when we had the time to slack yea trainers? haha. "Pigs are NOT pink!"
Oh hah krystal is very very talented in mimic-ing Siren!! hahah she almost scared the hell out of huixuan and me when she did that "bao-bao" siren [the one we hear during total defence day?] hahha it was super real..haha then we lamed around and tried to fool dani, then chieh hwee and mr ingham hahaha but all three attempts failed. HAha we[cherlyn, hx and me] ran from the third classroom to the 1st one, hoping to blaff dani tt we touched the shutters and triggered an alarm. DAni seriously looked worried!hahah until krystal came up with a "bao-bao-PFfff" and we were all down on the ground l-our-a-o. HAahahaha.1st attempt failed. second attempt plot: chieh hwee touch the metal tap and trigger off an alarm. action: ch did touch the tap and as planned krystal went "bao-bao" beside her and she gave tt puzzled look. krystal cldnt take it n bursted into laughter and so did the other. -2nd mission failed, and so did the thrid one- -.-
I seem abit unfeeling these days leh, juz like.. not interested in anything. And i tend to be mean and Spiteful...Oh man.. what's happening?? I totally dont like the way i am now but tt's me! I think since a week ago, i've been offending pple with tt stupid mouth of mine already. haiz.. SHUT UP LA!
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07/06/2004
Wahahha my brother is so cute.. he was planning for his future, planning his marriage and even planning for me. "姐，我读大学你就老啦" erm.. thanx so much ya? hhaa then i discovered he is so good in define clearly all the complicated family relationships. like 伯伯 and 姑妈. but he still needs trg la. When my other bro asked him wad will his grandson call my dad.. he answered "爷爸". hahhaha... erm.,. am i the only one who can appreciate?
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03/06/2004
eh.. life's rather boring nowadays. or shall i say nothing eva excites me? WEnt to plae billards with jes, aileen, leexinyi, waiyee and yifang on wed.. and according to wai 'we wasted the whole aftnoon'. Well actually not la hahha i was late in the 1st place to meet em in queenstown haha then 'fell out' for awhile and found our way to queensway shpg cntr and shopped for fang's shoes.. Yea. freq and taste different la so.. cant agree on a pair of shoes but eventually she found a quite graffiti like PINK shoes.. which is kinda okaaayy. hahha.ya then we went to ikea for lunch .. yumyum curry chicken was great. Ya lo.. then juz took taxi to orchard for billard. Played with lee xinyi 1st.. i was leading on OK? hahah then eventually she caught up and since then i kept losing to her!! argggh! Ok so much for another '1st time' in my short life. haha.
Yea life is short, so why bother myself with so much stuff right? especially problems with relationships. hahha tt day dunno who said, a person who can act stupid and get pass her life is the smartest person on earth. Ya, it kinda make sense to me, at least she doesnt need to compete with ppl all the time juz to prove tt she's the best. and she neednt guard other ppl..hhaah no one will pay special attention to an idiot anyway. Hahha.. and it's indeed self-entertaining to act stupid. But what's behind that mask tt's always laughing and joking and laming .. always looking carefree? people might view u in a different light.. u are already not who u really are.. no one ever knows the real u i mean, isnt tt quite pitiful when u feel tt u need someone but u cannot approach anyone cauz it's not the 'usual u' to do so?Bleah im not making sense.. i like myself <- conclusioN!
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01/06/2004
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