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The WriTer* in Me!

27/05/2004

I need help. Went for the career guidance exhibition for higher education aft sch and I even more confused now. All along, my aim was to go to a good JC, thereafter carry on to University in Singapore. Then aft the talk for tt CHARMING australian guy, haha im swayed. Alright, now i aim to get a scholarship and aim go to Melbourne / Perth. Haha basically it's because of the science aspect and from what i know university of melbourne is quite well known for that. [but then again, im not even THAT sure if i wanna do Science]. Then it's quite EX to go overseas ya? so i do need a scholarship + my family has 3 ppl who needs financial support to university [if we ever make it] and how can my parents afford that without scholarships??? AHhh.. then that guy said "there's so much higher probability of getting a scholarship in a poly than a JC. Imagine u competing with hundreds of other students with straight As, how can u judge the diff? [seriously i'll die in the stiff competition]. Being in poly if u do well enough to get into the top 5%, a scholarship is easier to get." BUt seriously, dun the government give MORE scholarships to JC ppl with straight As??? AHHHH but again how do i compete with them. With my current level of intelligence [im getting stupider] i very well know that i do not stand a chance. Poly on the other hand provides a rather.. skill base education <- i prefer that over the academic base studies. i mean, quoting frm tt person again, aft Poly u get skills trg and exp and knowledge and From JC u only get academic exp. BLeaugh im confusing myself.JC or POLY ??????
Ok first, what areas do i wish to develop in? i wanted to do Biotech / biochem but to tie in close with my ambition / desired vocation, i would choose to go choice 1 by interest criminology choice 2 psycology. Being pragmatic, i'll choose law. now i have 2 scholarships in mind: SGS / LMS tsk. AHHH so.. haha i think more or less i've decided on JC i guess if i really wanna be in my desired vocation. hhaa

#kl still believes in the good of everybody17:54

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26/05/2004

ChocoLat Day! hhaa ok i bought 3 chocs in total. Because i was very very touched by a group of ppl + a sqmate today. HAHA. FIrst.. THANX to waiyee, yifang, sunyang, zinc and Doreen for the quiksilver wallet!!WooT n it's red and white and black!!!haha nice color combi! why u all so nice?? -think i was blushing when i receive tt wallet-
Hahaha..then went to check papers. History, well i missed my target by 1 mark, thanx to source base. Bio..nv thot i wld do tt badly for tt subject.Haiz.. but i expected a D7 la, count myself lucky. then i calculated L1R5 .. i probably will do worse than CA1 haha.
Then during recess, hhaa joelyn gave me a surprise!!! ahhaa.. OH joelyn actually gave me a CHOC!!!haha so sweet and unexpected.. haha. too bad the chocs are too ex.. if not i sure buy more.. so many ppl to give..haha but the message dedication was really helping the sales la. haha at least joelyn bought another choc juz a dedicate a message!
then i bought a choc for those ANGELS that bought me the wallet.. hahah [oh im not cursing those theives liao, decided to 4give em, for my parents forgave me =)]
Aft recesss, check emaths paper. hahaha that's like the only A1 in R5 tt im going to get??? I was literally SCREAMING when i saw paper 1.. juz tt it's quite silent n mabbe only joelyn and jiang yue can hear.. hahah.. din do as well for Paper 2 but hey, im satisfied!!!finally! -results wise. Alright.. my L1 R5 confirm >13 <17.. tt's quite bad.. haha. Nvm, kai1 xin1 jiu4 hao3!

#kl still believes in the good of everybody20:23

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25/05/2004

Hhaha first some things i wanna clarify, I said that sounds "fine" not "fun" haha. THink alot of pple are having misconceptions abt me liao.
AHhh i molested huixuan YTD!hahaha -beams pervertedly-
And this morning, stupid joelyn is so qian bian.. made me so violent [but she did smth really horrible] hahha.. trust her to aim man.. she can.
For the past 2 days.. i have been surviving ordeals aft ordeals [haha abit exxagerated]. But actually i did better for English compre than i expected hahha.. yea i know alot of ppl will kill me for saying this but hey believe me, i din do really any better than the rest, juz that if it was my normal standard i would have did worst.yea..summary was crap.. haha failed like mad. Chinese.. worse than expected haha.. I was praying very hard to score high for paper 2 when i got back paper 1. Hhaa n when huix passed me my paper she said, congrats u made it.. orh.. i was jumping hhaha. Erm.. SS.. i can juz say im grateful for what i get.. really, at least i improved. haha. And ya, i deserve tt single-digit essay score i hate my essay too.[and i can sense her fustration -> my essay was total crap] Chemm.. totally out of my mind. I was never that desperate for 1 mark.. in the end i had to deduct another one =(. Amaths.. paper1 and 2 were 2 extremes. When i got back 1 i was like beaming from ear to ear. the second one, i actually slept through the explanation of questions. Hhaha.. nah.. too tired.. dunno why.. should be partly from the VISUAL[red marks] and SENSUAL[L1R5 keeps increasing] impact. ahha
New aim: L1 R5 <15 .. hopefully!!

#kl still believes in the good of everybody21:02

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22/05/2004

wah piang wad a suei day. 1st all my plans today got screwed up. second it rained when i wanted to go beach and tan. 3rd i lost everything i brought w me.wad's wrong w the world today man. Oh great im cursing tt idiiot who stole my bag. i curse tt 'll dream of him n kick his *** and slap him right in the face %@$^&!%@#.. took my whole bag [present from my dearest friends lo] wah piang. $@^%*$&% im still cursing.. n my wallet's in side.. my walkman's inside.. my everything is inside.. and my handphone is inside. oh great.. i lost touch to the world liao.AGGHH. guess wad.. some of e pple were in the waters.. all wet.. came up the bags were missing.. wad could have happened to them?? if they wre really really.. grr i give up

#kl still believes in the good of everybody23:04

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16/05/2004

青春记念册
给你我的心作纪念这份爱任何时刻你打开都新鲜
有我陪伴多苦都变成甜睁开眼就看见永远
给我你的心作纪念我的梦有你的祝福才能够完全
风浪再大我也会勇往直前我们的爱镶在青春的纪念册
去年夏天数着贝壳和浪花的海边
我们祈祷着明年的今天还能够保持这样无忧笑脸
你是夏天有海风吹过棕榈的蓝天
让我忘记了眼泪有多咸
你一出现就是晴天
还想听你任性的说
要带我去环游世界就算整个世界都改变
也不改变为你勇敢的自己
给你我的心作纪念这份爱任何时刻你打开都新鲜
有我陪伴多苦都变成甜睁开眼就看见永远
给我你的心作纪念我的梦有你的祝福才能够完全
风浪再大我也会勇往直前我们的爱镶在青春的纪念册
一年以后我们踏上了各自的旅途
虽然经历过不同的故事仍记得海边的约定
还想听你任性的说要带我去环游世界
就算整个世界都改变
也不改变为你勇敢的自己
给你我的心作纪念这份爱任何时刻你打开都新鲜
有我陪伴多苦都变成甜睁开眼就看见永远
给我你的心作纪念我的梦有你的祝福才能够完全
风浪再大我也会勇往直前我们的爱镶在青春的纪念册
给你我的心作纪念这份爱任何时刻你打开都新鲜
有我陪伴多苦都变成甜睁开眼就看见永远
给我你的心作纪念我的梦有你的祝福才能够完全
风浪再大我也会勇往直前我们的爱镶在青春的纪念册

#kl still believes in the good of everybody14:22

oh yea one more thing, for the past week i've really been mugging very hard.. even went to bukit batok cc to mug w wai n suny. hahha..hmm.. quite funny experience there la. Left the place at around 5 40. Then like 100m away from the bus stop.. i suddenly remembered that i lef tmy dictionary in the toilet -.-|| haha yea and poor wai had to walk with me all e way back to the cc, stopping by a shop to buy some snack [pigo me] haha. Then when we were waiting for the lift, got this Pr 1 /2 boy kept staring at the both of us. Ok la.. he's kinda short [around 1.2 / 1.3 m tall] haha so he was looking at us from TOP to toE.. like ???. Haha for one moment he looked kinda horny like some se peh peh. hahah.
Then wai came to my house to study ytd. bleaugh.. when 2 pple who really cant bring emselves to study come together.. there's bound to be some positive effect one la. Hha but we spent too much time going through the essay questions haha then we only managed to finish 3 chp of history and 2 chp of bio. mehhee... went off to coffee bean at arnd 5+ n haha pig out some chicago cheese cake tt's super cheesy. hiek .. and gossiped to e MRT station abt some OBS weird + horrible memories..hurhur.

#kl still believes in the good of everybody09:49

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15/05/2004

Wheee!! i finally can get abit of rest aft one whole week of BORING exams!! haha boring doesnt mean i find all the papers chicken feet or anything k? It's just that i wasnt in the top form for the papers. DUnno why, this year i am super affected by the weather.. haha mabbe it's that exams are normally at the end of year and my bio system has made tt my optimum think ing and working temperature already. So i cant do exams in summer!
Im on the verge of giving up on my subjcts liao la.. n ma say: "if u got 20+ ranking in your class ah, I FORBID you to go for any CCA!" oooopss.. hahhaa PRAY hard

#kl still believes in the good of everybody22:37

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08/05/2004

CSM today, probably the last one that im attending and well, it's a real memorable one. haha.. went there in the morning and set up the sitting area which had to change a few times. hhaah then throughout, the cheering was quite good and sporntaneous..high sipirts that i've never seen. Hhaa i can see my classmates from the front.. haha cheering their lungs out![oh.. should be voicebox haha] well i guess i maluated myself alot by going out of tune when shouting.. haha like suddenly my voice goes in a very high pitch ~~~ eeeeek. hhaha. so nice of the pple who prepared the honey water!! saved my voice. n erm.. haha Ny teachers rox.. OH and jk got 2nd for 100m huRrAY!
yea then aft the whole thing i had a mood swing woot scarry one man hhahaa i juz suddenly became very quiet and silent.. dun feel like talking to anyone lo.. haha..sigh

#kl still believes in the good of everybody16:57

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07/05/2004

NP day! the last one though for B35. I cant exactly describe how i felt today.. juz ajumble of words and may be you can figure out what exactly am i trying to say:
Happy tired
Excited dread proud
reluctant Glad exhausted
ya tt's abt all i feel. Basically i feel quite empty.. im like losing focus on mid yrs. In fact i dont think i really care alot for midyrs. Tt day someone told me something: "it juz feels like u are not progressing and as if everyone around you has a faster pace than u" <-- when can people be satisfied? hhaa
WEll anw today was quite memorable la =) RAined cats and dogs in the morning like 20min b4 the parade and hope is frail for the parade to continue as planned. BUt well, heaven seems to take pity on us and decided to stop raining 10min b4 the parade. There you have a whole quadrangle of people wearing full U trying to mop the quadrangle dry of stagnant water ! hahha get down to work people! we can start a cleaning company liao --> we are so efficient!. hhaa then took lots of photos [sq photos, unit photos] heehee juz b4 lessons start la. i could rmb myself struggling to keep awake for the whole of bio and physics.. sorry la.. only slept for 4h last nite really cannot tahan.haha yea. then recess went to take sq photos as well, thanx to b38 for taking photos for us!
[why m i giving juz an account? 4get it, im too tired to think]
then aft sch.. i think sqmates and i juz went out of our minds.. 3 more days to midyrs and a fine nice friday aftnoon could be spend to finish revising my sec 3 SS and what did we spend 2 hours or so doing? Playing badminton!! hahah it's quite a ffunny scene hha aa huge contrast from this morning's. Initially, a few pple were playing badminton and me and melissa suddenly felt like playing badminton so me mel and jas went to borrow racket lo. hhaa then PAh suddenly a few b38ters came.. haha than POW a huge lot of B37ners came and TAH! there u have.. a whole quadrangle of nYNp pple in dark blue quarter skirt playing badminton! hhaha we are dynamic youths ya?hhaa quite fun la.. mix in between sqs and juz plae.. hee=) ya lo then pla till 5.30 and everyone went back home stinky and sticky..hahah and tt ended my day in school!
oh Happy Birthday Pheywa and CIndy! hhaa phey wa must hug p-ya to slp tonite and.. hehee drink papaya milkshake!

#kl still believes in the good of everybody20:31

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04/05/2004

GATTACA is such a nice show that everyone should try to watch! I shall advertise that movie here =). Well basically, i guess the movie is a real must-watch for all people who cannot resist science fiction and people who are interested in Life-sciences, especially genetics. It's about how an INVALID - a naturally conceived guy strives in his way to space in a firm called GATTACA, where only the elite of the society - the VALIDs [designer babies] are granted permission to enter. I guess it's a pretty real stimulation and preview of the future world, observing the trends and direction in which genetic science is developing. AND I LOVE IT. JErome murrow dint have to die!!! i almost cried when i saw that scene. I really thought he was inspired by vincent's determination to achieve soemthing great that he will really go travelling and widen his knowledge or something liddat. In the end he chose to kill himself!!! AHH he juz burnt himself in the furnace! I think the last scene where by they show the fire in the furnace and the silver swimming medal of his is very touching and.. philosophical. Does it mean tt even till death, he is still a second and nv a best? Izzit that he feels inferior to Vincent -an INVALID therefore he decided that vincent could jolly well take his name and live his name better??

#kl still believes in the good of everybody19:03

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03/05/2004

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO US! HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO US! HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO BATCH 35!!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO US!!!
Last official sq bdae le.. haha but it's quite pathedd cauz all of us are either grounded at home to study or too tired from muggin and appreciate the nice beds at homes. haha.. but anw..happy birthday sqmates! Jiayoux for mid yrs k.. dun be too stressed out la.. mid yrs only mah.. still got prelims.. still got 'O's.. take it easy la!

#kl still believes in the good of everybody06:18

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02/05/2004

OMG this is amazing and hilarious. my brother baked a cake all by his own. NOTE: he is 8. hahaha.. he juz took the self-raising flour and added egg + honey + butter [alot] + cheese+strawberry jam and mix mix mix mix and he put in the oven and TADAAA!! it's done. Golden brown and crispy! BUt he forgot the sugar.. so it's like damn salty.. haha and the flour still watry watery one. hjaha but it SMELLS good. OMG.. my brother' a genius

#kl still believes in the good of everybody16:55

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