The WriTer* in Me!
30/04/2004
Well i realise ppl can tell my cao-byn [black face] very easily leh. hhaa i juz walk past the guides board feeling quite pissed at something and jes chua saw and ask 'why u so piss?' hahha.. ok.. i better smile at everyone.
yifang doreen and zinc accuse me of being e xin..tsk tsk. how can? i juz happen to not remember to tell doreen that i think her answer is wrong mah.. liddat also scold me.. spoil my image man.
btw the 2 compo sessions has got all my brain juices drained. the chinese compo i wrote is like sub-standard lo.. i was juz trying to get it over and done with and i kept repeating the same vocab used lo. sigh. then i felt rather..annoyed. especially when my computer refuses to work and i cant open any explorer stuff.. gah.
Got particularly pissed abt a certain issue today. Think i will juz have to be a lil less petty!
AHH my family is so noisy!!! i suspect i m autistic..like joelyn haha .. i hear: my keyboard, the television, my mother naggin at my maid, my maid tryin to sound innocent, my brothers playing and screaming, and my silent self SHOUTING at them. well and the fan is not working.. damn HOT!
Alright getting abit whiny liao. I jus hope that i can get out of the mid yrs asap lo. agrgh.. bio test was a disaster.. ok the result was a disaster. nv got so low for bio b4. shit im losing confidence in myself and shit my 3 days are going to be spent doing midyrs papers. AGGH.. imgonna slp and forget abt all these for now. .. at least for now till tml i can have a swt dream .. out of reality!
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29/04/2004
well i read some of my archives outa boredom and stress ytd n well, somehow i find that i was happier last year. hmm.. mabbe it's the change in the way i think? =) nvm.. i shall try to smile more!
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27/04/2004
Right.. hmm.. oh morning part wasnt that nice after all.. haha. running here and there.. busyin bleah. haha then for physics, hohoho.. mrs ch*a was so nice to give me a sticker for my prac.. haha though it's all tyco.. but.. well.. haha tt's very nice of her.
Then our class participated in the interclass maths quizz and got a silver cup. hahaa.. din really pay much attention to how to solve the problems la but well.. was laming around w huix, joyss, waiyee and sunyang.. ahaha.. joyce is so freaky.. haha she juz GUESS the correct ans for 2 times lo.. 4, 6 ,7 are the lucky number of the day.. BUY 4D! haha. guess im juz so SLOW nowadays lo.. cant even see the whole point n trick to tt question and the pple behind made it sound like a matter-of-fact duh question. haha..
After tt..slacked in the class until 330 + SOME warm ups la.. but something BAD happened. think we're in hot soup. then went for NAPFA that was so .. demorallising. got a C for the 1st item.. B for the 2nd..the rest were quite alrite. sigh.. last year liao.. still cannot get perfect score!! ARggh.. deprove somemore lo. haha but my Super-grip shoes enabled 2 pple to pass shuttle run!! haha.
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26/04/2004
HAPPY BIRTHDAY JOYCE KUa! [hoho.. i typed happy dirthday.. mehehe]
haha since yesterday i was made super high by the hu - lala shaker furry toy ahhaha.. n someone who called. mwahaha
then today in sch.. for some reasons i am very HIGH.. hmm despite the fact tt i din memorise clit.. well.. haha [someone might be thinking t it's her bday tt's why]..dunno leh.but i jealous leh.. she got so many nice nice presents hhaha [not tt i dun have for my bday la.. haha well.. it's juz tt my bdae happen not to b on a sch day] oh well hhaa.
And b4 flag raising.. =) quite high too.. someone knows why.
The sky was dark juz b4 PE.. thought i could skip 2.4km cauz i had this really BAD gastric this morning [yet i can still feel high.] and i really din felt like running. BUt just like 2 mins b4 PE the strikin sun juz chose to glow and spoil my day. well oh nvm.. haha then juz ran lo. I got so freaked out by the casualty! haha quite alot of casualties and RIGHT b4 the run adrenaline was acting on me. according to mrs wong some time ago "adrenline [mabbe] cauz u to feel in shitting[these are my own words] to ligthen the weight so u can run/fight faster" .. haha ohwell.. aft the run my n pheywa juz left the others for the loo.. hhhaa.. so digusting lo. haha like aft the run everyone was so tired and there we 2 kept saying "we want to da4 bian4" hahah so crude. haha then aft tt we got dismissed early and went to play the long-forgotten badminton w the bdae gal..haha my skill sux now!!
Then for english lesson, i guess gwen and me had hell lota fun laming around.. AHhahhaha.. hhaa and special thanx to someone for the unforgetable aftnoon.[though im gonna flunk clit i guess]
=) when one is HIGH inthe morning.. most likely she will be HIGH throughOUT the day!! So.. make ur friends' morning SHINE with a SMILE the first thing u see her in sch!!
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24/04/2004
haha y does everything come back only now? haha is it abit too late already? in the middle of the cheers i felt like crying u know? it's been SO long.. so long.. and yet it seems so familiar.. welcome back!
but they sae NO, escapism is not right
Sometimes i just wanna cycle alongside the road, letting the breeze blow the troubles away.
but they sae NO, escapism is not right
Sometimes, i feel like deceiving myself, to make myself feel better over certain stuff
But they sae NO, escapism is not right
Sometimes, i plunge myself into homework.. concentrate and try not to think of certain stuff
But they sae NO, escapism is not right
NOw i've learnt to face my fears and i did..i really did. I plucked up my courage and approached it.
And now, im immeresed in pain and heartache...
The MORE i want to escape.
HOw i hope i have amnesia..selective amnesia
Yet they still sae NO escapism is not right
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19/04/2004
Slight cases have slight headaches and dizziness.. severe ones have BAD BAD headaches and MORE severe ones has got short term memory!!! read up!!
the information is true but i am not sure if our class pple is really ill because of the terpentine.. just a guess
Eye irritation has been reported in connection with acute
exposure down to a level of 600 mg/m3 (100 ppm). At higher levels
respiratory irritation and more pronounced eye irritation occur.
Acute CNS symptoms such as headache, drunkenness, dizziness and
fatigue have been reported in several cases of occupational exposure.
Oh my.. if we continue to go to that stinky conference room, more severe cases may arise!
Controlled 7-h exposure to levels of 600 mg/m3 or more resulted
in impaired balance during walking and to an increased reaction time.
Exposure to 4000 mg/m3 for 50 min resulted in impaired performance in
tests for perceptual speed and short-term memory.
Ahh!! we CANNOT STAY in that room for both maths lecture and english lesson tml!!! my brain will malfunction!
One case of cyanosis, apnoea and cardiac arrest after excessive
inhalation exposure during painting has been reported.
WAH!! will die leh!! CANNOT!!!
all information IS true. Information taken from http://www.inchem.org/documents/hsg/hsg/hsg103.htm
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17/04/2004
-Haim Ginott
A is walking in circles in life
A: why am i walking in cirlces?
b: Cauz' there is no end
A: why cant there be an end?
B: If there is an end, there will be no point walking
- the silly little girl and the funny old tree
hmmm.. sad that i wasted my day.. haha but i still feel like wasting it. well.. tt's me too bad!=p
couldnt go support those GOH ppl.. my mama is throwing a temper.. haiz.. so so so SorRy! i promised to go.. but i cant.. terribly sorry
hmm and i realised i m a 路痴too... haha i cant navigate around orchard one leh.. haha 1st i dunno the place.. 2nd iam juz so ulu. haha.
i should have scanned the picture i drew man.. RoibO man! haha and yifung looks likea pinky punk now mehehe.. n jk shall attempt to continue to mess up her hair for the next few days. Ahaha...
did u know?
Black bear bear = black pepper burger
mehehee...
如果有一天
我回到从前
回到最原始的我
你是否会觉得我不错
如果有一天
我离你遥远
不能再和你相约
你是否会发觉我已经说再见
当你的眼睛眯着笑
当你喝可乐当你找
我想对你好
你从来不知道
想你想你
也能成为嗜好
当你说今天的烦恼
当你说夜深你睡不着
我想对你说
却害怕都说错
还喜欢你
知不知道
如果有一天
梦想都实现
回忆都成了永远
你是否还会记得今天
如果有一天
我们都发觉
原来什么都可以
无论是否还会停留在这里
也许可是让我想得太多
也许该回到没我
梦里和相遇
就毫不犹豫
大声的说我要说
当你的眼睛眯着笑
当你喝可乐当你找
我想对你好
你从来不知道
想你想你
也能成为嗜好
啦～啦～
我想对你说
却害怕都说错
还喜欢你
知不知道
啦～啦～
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13/04/2004
well anw.. haha jk is temporarily my idol!! "she's like a breeze~~" the saviour the miracle!!! =p
ah.. ok other than tt the whole day wasquite exciting.. maths test was a blunder lo.. spent so much time in front that is like.. worth so lil marks.sigh.. in the end i din finish the qn that i could do lo,, so gek!! chinese..well.. haha quite fun la.. wang lao is so FUnnnyy.. haha i cant imagine wad she said she did!well.. guess teachers are a funloving batch of pple too .. hurhur =p
mehehe.. then during chem lab.. pw was trying to heat the testtube and test for a gas. alrite.. she turn on the bunsen.. n i wonder why she's in such a hurry and i went over to the other end of the table to take the sparker. then i heard "PFfff" i turned and look.. tt gal actually tried to use a SPLINT to light a flame lo!!!.. how clever!??!
wahhaa.. the funniest part was during assembly.. wahhaa.. mdm t*h is sososososo FUNNY!! hahaha.. "penguinly!!" oh my goodness lo!! ahaha... i neva thot mr k**o was such a emal person... "is ___dog a dog.. is = to asking is a fat man a man??".. nothing to say.. hhaa. i had a great laugh when ms ch*n said 'the cat that neva __ it's claws is.. *bwahaha* garfield!!" 0.o..
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12/04/2004
I felt quite carefree in school today..no idea why.. mabbe my morning started well? ahha.. actually i woke up late.. but i dunno.. i juz felt quite happy in sch haha. Sometimes.. its abt appreaciating ya? hmm i thot alot yesterday.. abt how im living my life and wad r the things that i was sad abt yesterdae. Then when i was studying CLIT, i realise all my worries and "sorrows' are SO SO SO trivial.. felt quite ashame of myself and my promised that i would become strong again =p..hmm..
yifang did something very nice todae.. aha..
aha.. then during elective lesson.. we had a sporntaneous 'debate ' mehhee.. think our grp very funny lo.. haha. i had no idea what the whole debate wad about.. wad is the direction of the debate haha but ijuz get SO.. entertained by the actions of some pple. haha and the 4/11 lameness is being appreaciated by eejiaying. haha. and nichola demands that she's ah di's wife and im the concubine.. haha wadeva.. she got toro already lo.. nvm.. usually the concubine is the more pretty one.. =) nic.. see that?!
Alright then aft sch.. haha being so bored me and chailing crapped abt .. the future.. for a moment i felt that the crap i was toking abt made so much sense haha.. and talk abt.. ambitions.. haha.. Eh at least i got a dream k.. [actually she has a RATHER funny ambition too..mehhee]
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11/04/2004
For me, friends make up most of my life. they gave me joy, sorrow, anger, hope and blah blah blah.. Sometimes, when u sae LOVE, pple link it to BF-GF, Wife-Husband.. but love is universal [i cant think now so my thots are in bits and pieces].. and between friends, there is LOVE always and this LOVE has the power to overcome alot of stuff, if you believe in it. To pple feeling down out there: HEY LOOK!! u are not alone.. tell ur worries or sorrows to a friend or two.. they will shower you with love, shine through ur darkest moment [aiya very cliche]. And in turn, love them back. the fact is that Everyone in the world yearns for love, if you do not express yourself, u will juz be shut in your snowy corner when everyone else is sharing the warmth of love.
TO all my friends out there [not alot], if you guys do not know, i am a damn damn damn hard-to-make-friends person.. so if you are my friend and u know it, pls do realise, i love every single one of u out there to a certain extent that im so nice to u =p heehee.. if not i can be VERY nasty alright? 3:E...
Spread your love.. let your friends know that u love em.. haha and feel the kinda joy and warmth that im feeling now when someone actually come and tell u, "thanks for being my friend!"
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10/04/2004
因为 - 范玮琪 - 范范的世界
因为
总在我家巷口和你分手
彷佛偶像剧一样
觉得我们就要发生些什么
总在回家时候不知所措
想再打电话给你
可是再见刚刚才说过
有一种想要拥抱你的冲动
想静静看着你的笑容
让你藏在怀中
直到我每天的尽头
因为想一个人而寂寞
因为爱一个人而温柔
因为有一个梦而执着
因为等一个人而折磨
因为想一个人而解脱
因为爱一个人而宽容
因为有一个梦而放纵
因为等一个人而漂泊
因为想一个人而寂寞
因为爱一个人而温柔
像夜的朦拢
你的深情难懂
我的世界因为你而不同
因为想一个人而解脱
因为爱一个人而宽容
像风的自由
你的深情难留
你的背影
是我最美丽的所有
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09/04/2004
Jan 12 to Jan 24 - Elm Tree
Jan 25 to Feb 03 - Cypress Tree
Feb 04 to Feb 08 - Poplar Tree
Feb 09 to Feb 18 - Cedar Tree
Feb 19 to Feb 28 - Pine Tree
Mar 01 to Mar 10 - Weeping Willow Tree
Mar 11 to Mar 20 - Lime Tree
Mar 21 - Oak Tree
Mar 22 to Mar 31 - Hazelnut Tree
Apr 01 to Apr 10 - Rowan Tree
Apr 11 to Apr 20 - Maple Tree
Apr 21 to Apr 30 - Walnut Tree
May 01 to May 14 - Poplar Tree
May 15 to May 24 - Chestnut Tree
May 25 to Jun 03 - Ash Tree
Jun 04 to Jun 13 - Hornbeam Tree
Jun 14 to Jun 23 - Fig Tree
Jun 24 - Birch Tree
Jun 25 to Jul 04 - Apple Tree
Jul 05 to Jul 14 - Fir Tree
Jul 15 to Jul 25 - Elm Tree
Jul 26 to Aug 04 - Cypress Tree
Aug 05 to Aug 13 - Poplar Tree
Aug 14 to Aug 23 - Cedar Tree
Aug 24 to Sep 02 - Pine Tree
Sep 03 to Sep 12 - Weeping Willow Tree
Sep 13 to Sep 22 - Lime Tree
Sep 23 - Olive Tree
Sep 24 to Oct 03 - Hazelnut Tree
Oct 04 to Oct 13 - Rowan Tree
Oct 14 to Oct 23 - Maple Tree
Oct 24 to Nov 11 - Walnut Tree
Nov 12 to Nov 21 - Chestnut Tree
Nov 22 to Dec 01 - Ash Tree
Dec 02 to Dec 11 - Hornbeam Tree
Dec 12 to Dec 21 - Fig Tree
Dec 22 - Beech Tree
Dec 23 to Dec 31 - Apple Tree
APPLE TREE (the Love) -
of slight build, lots of charm, appeal, and attraction,
pleasant aura, flirtatious, adventurous, sensitive,
always in love, wants to love and be loved,
faithful and tender partner, very generous,
scientific talents, lives for
today, a carefree philosopher with imagination.
ASH TREE (the Ambition) -
uncommonly attractive, vivacious, impulsive,
demanding, does not care for criticism,
ambitious, intelligent, talented, likes to play with fate,
can be egotistic, very reliable and trustworthy,
faithful and prudent lover, sometimes
brains rule over the heart,
but takes partnership very seriously.
BEECH TREE (the Creative) -
has good taste, concerned about its looks, materialistic,
good organization of life and career, economical,
good leader, takes no unnecessary risks,
reasonable, splendid lifetime companion,
keen on keeping fit (diets, sports, etc.)
BIRCH TREE (the inspiration) -
vivacious, attractive, elegant, friendly, unpretentious,
modest, does not like anything in excess, abhors the
vulgar, loves life in nature and in calm,
not very passionate, full of imagination, little ambition,
creates a calm and content atmosphere.
CEDAR TREE (the Confidence) -
of rare beauty, knows how to adapt, likes luxury, of good health,
not in the least shy, tends to look down on others,
self-confident, determined, impatient, likes to impress others,
many talents, industrious, healthy optimism, waiting
for the one true love, able to make quick decisions.
CHESTNUT TREE (the Honesty) -
of unusual beauty, does not want to impress, well-developed
sense of justice, vivacious, interested, a born diplomat,
but irritates easily and sensitive in company, often due to a
lack of self confidence, acts sometimes superior,
feels not understood loves only once,
has difficulties in finding a partner.
CYPRESS TREE (the Faithfulness) -
strong, muscular, adaptable, takes what life has to give,
content, optimistic, craves money and acknowledgment,
hates loneliness, passionate lover which
cannot be satisfied, faithful, quick-tempered,
unruly, pedantic, and careless.
ELM TREE (the Noble-mindedness) -
pleasant shape, tasteful clothes, modest demands,
tends not to forgive mistakes, cheerful, likes to lead
but not to obey, honest and faithful
partner, likes making decisions for others,
noble-minded, generous, good sense of humor, practical.
FIG TREE (the Sensibility) -
very strong, a bit self-willed, independent does not
allow contradiction or arguments, loves life, its family,
children and animals, a bit of a social
butterfly, good sense of humor, likes idleness and
laziness, of practical talent and intelligence.
FIR TREE (the Mysterious) -
extraordinary taste, dignity, sophisticated, loves
anything beautiful, moody, stubborn, tends to egoism
but cares for those close to them, rather modest, very
ambitious, talented, industrious, uncontented lover, many
friends, many foes, very reliable
HAZELNUT TREE (the Extraordinary) -
charming, undemanding, very understanding, knows
how to make an impression, active fighter for social
cause, popular, moody, and capricious
lover, honest, and tolerant partner, precise sense of judgment.
HORNBEAM TREE (the Good Taste) -
of cool beauty, cares for its looks and condition, good taste,
is not egoistic, makes life as comfortable as possible,
leads a reasonable and disciplined life, looks for
kindness and acknowledgment in an emotional partner,
dreams of unusual lovers, is seldom happy with its feelings, mistrusts most people, is never sure of its decisions, very conscientious.
LIME TREE (the Doubt) -
accepts what life dishes out in a composed way,
hates fighting, stress, and labor,
dislikes laziness and idleness, soft and relenting,
makes sacrifices for friends, many talents but not
tenacious enough to make them blossom,
often wailing and complaining, very jealous but loyal.
MAPLE TREE (Independence of Mind) -
no ordinary person, full of imagination and originality,
shy and reserved, ambitious, proud, self-confident,
hungers for new experiences, sometimes nervous,
has many complexities, good memory, learns easily,
complicated love life, wants to impress.
OAK TREE (the Brave) -
robust nature, courageous, strong, unrelenting, independent, sensible, does not like change, keeps its feet on the
ground, person of action.
OLIVE TREE (the Wisdom) -
loves sun, warmth and kind feelings, reasonable, balanced,
avoids aggression and violence, tolerant, cheerful,
calm, well-developed sense of justice,
sensitive, empathetic, free of jealousy, loves to read
and the company of sophisticated people.
PINE TREE (the Particular) -
loves agreeable company, very robust, knows how to make
life comfortable, very active, natural, good companion, but
seldom friendly, falls easily in love but
its passion burns out quickly, gives up easily, everything
disappointments until it finds its ideal, trustworthy, practical.
POPLAR TREE (the Uncertainty) -
looks very decorative, not very self-confident, only courageous
if necessary, needs goodwill and pleasant surroundings,
very choosy, often lonely, great animosity, artistic nature,
good organizer, tends to lean toward
philosophy, reliable in any situation, takes partnership seriously.
ROWAN TREE (the Sensitivity) -
full of charm, cheerful, gifted without egoism, likes to draw attention, loves life, motion, unrest, and even complications,
is both dependent and independent, good taste, artistic, passionate, emotional, good company, does
not forgive.
WALNUT TREE (the Passion) -
unrelenting, strange and full of contrasts, often egotistic, aggressive, noble, broad horizon, unexpected reactions, spontaneous, unlimited ambition, no flexibility,
difficult and uncommon partner, not always liked but often admired, ingenious strategist, very jealous and passionate,
no compromise.
WEEPING WILLOW (the Melancholy) -
beautiful but full of melancholy, attractive, very empathetic,
loves anything beautiful and tasteful, loves to travel, dreamer,
restless, capricious, honest, can be influenced but is not easy
to live with, demanding, good intuition, suffers in love but
finds sometimes an anchoring partner.
tues is 100m relay heats.. duno wad expression i should give.. :|
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05/04/2004
Alright.. then comes something really dumb. Cherlyn tan called me last night and told me.. 'kai ling, there is a mtg tml recess near the ecopond.. u all come at around 11+ la.' then i asked 'wad izzit abt ah?' she said 'dunno leh.. pw and liyi sae one.. should be SLC or gradnite la' and then i was like 'oh .. ok' and she said 'alright.. dun need to pass message liao'.. and i smelt something fishy already.. ok.. then today morning i realise i got remedial on during recess.. so i told cherlyn .. haha then she was like "NO.. cannot.. u very impt u know..??" haha then she ran to my class to look for PW and then HZ.. hahah and they were behaving so DAMN fishy.. hah.. end up it was a surprise birthday party for april babies for our batch council : me, dani, huix, syl... if i din leave anione out..haha. alrite.. the sweetest thing was.. i was in the english departmnet meeting room.. haha having remedial.. then i saw wudani and huix walking to and fro outside the room.. haha.. and knock knock.. they came in.. WITH A CAKE!! a large piece of cake with "HAPPY BIRTHDAY" on it.. haha.. and behind.. i saw.. liyi and sylvia.. SO SWEET... i was very very touched!!i was beaming from ear to ear lo.. haha =)
Oh.. then aft sch.. the threesome .. they call emselves we3 la..haha came and presented me the "secret gift". haha they were busy decorating it during recess.. and they din realise i was near. when they did.. they screamed.. i screamed.. and they sent 3 pple to pull me off to the toilet and lock me there -.-. haha.. ok.. they were decorating a pillow / cushion thinggie la.. which i think is bought by wai2.. haha jk gave me a box of oreo Os[oh.. i asked her the significance and .. the ans was.. very cliche haha.. ] sunyang gave me.. a hair.. clip. which i believe i look weird in.. haha. But.. wai2 is so accident prone and she put the pillow on my CAKE.. and the melting cake is now.. flat.. hahha.. and the pillow stained. haha but i was touched too.. (= everyone is so nice..<333
haha yea im finally 16... is tt good or bad? haha.. well.. yesterdae.. though it's bday la.. but life isnt very much more interesting..haha. got la.. we went on a hike and expedition to someone's house! wai2, zinc and yifang hiked with me.. to jk's house.. hehee.. i thot everything would go well.. but the shutter bus to her house do not operate on sunday!! so.. haha i have to go to tt place base on my memory of how to go somewhere near there... 1 year ago.. haha. In the end.. we actually managed to do it.. la.. found her house [damn ulu].. haha must acknowledge quijun for this =). thankyou!. yea.. we reached her house and wanna to take a few pics.. as evidence of our acomplishment.. haha but her dad was outside the house and looked at us like we are.. thieves acting like pple outside the house.. haha so in the end we din take photos! haha.. and she came out with a most unwelcoming tone 'crazee ah..wad u all doing here??' hhaa. actually tt was better than wad we expected la..hee hee.. thot we'll be chased out of the house but ended up we are lured in by her mum's nice delicacies and mahjong and cards!! haha..
yea.. aft a nice treat frm her mum and a good lesson on mahjong by her sis, we set off for my house!! hha too bad zinc had to go 1st.. so we shot a photo of ourselves at e mrt station..acting like some tourists. haha.. at my house.. showed them some cute photos of mine and we started talking.. crap.. talkin abt pri sch life.. and gosssips.. hahaha...
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03/04/2004
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01/04/2004
Haha i juz love todae!!!
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